Use Me, Darling

Part 21

Time had passed again. Tay had eaten something even though he didn't felt hungry and packed his things together for his classes tomorrow. He felt well enough to go back. Physically there was no reason for him not to go. But he didn't want to see Time and Vegas again, he didn't want to look into Kinns eyes again after he had betrayed him like that. He just wanted to close his eyes again and dive back into the world of his dreams, where everything was just so much easier, as his phone rang. "Yes?" "Tay, how are you doing?" It was Kinn that had called him. Tay had the urge to hang up and throw his phone away, but he couldn't do that to Kinn. "Better, I am going back to university tomorrow." "That's good to hear." Kinns voice sounded a little off, like he had been through a lot over the last couple of days he hadn't seen him. "I need to talk to you. I can't to Time about it. He isn't going to understand." Kinn stopped. Hesitation and Kinn were two different pair of shoes. Kinn always was sure of every single of his actions. "I did a huge mistake." His voice broke and he took a deep breath. Never before had Tay heard him sound like that. He heard him in anger, mad and furious but never disappointed in himself. "I slept... No, that's not right. I raped Porsche." Tay jaw dropped. He raped someone and now blurted it out to him like that? "You raped him?" Tay didn't want to believe what he had just heard. Kinn had done many bad things, but always with a reason but rape? There was never enough of a reason to rape someone. "He was drugged at the auction we went to. Someone had taken him up to room and wanted to do somethings to him... I luckily came in time, and nothing happened. I just wanted to help him. He had thrown up as I came and was barely conscious. I help him undress and brought him to the bathroom." He again stopped his shacking voice to take a deep breath. "And then he stated to flirt with me, he asked me why I kissed him, if I didn't liked him. I should have kept myself together as he touched me but I couldn't help myself. I want to touch him and kiss him again and so I did. And I just couldn't stop." Kinn nearly sounded as if was sobbing. "And then you did it?" Tay was shocked. He couldn't had imagined that Kinn would go that far. He must had really liked Porsche, if he couldn't stop. He usually always stopped when it was time to do so. But now he had gone too far. "He hates me Tay. He hates me, I know it. And father didn't make things better as he told me that I needed to punish him for his mistake. He really must hate me. He is never going to be able to look into my eyes again." Kinn really cried. He cried on the phone. Never before had Tay heard his best friend cry. He regretted every second of the night he had spent with Porsche. If he could turn back time he would. He didn't want him to hate him. "And now he quiet. My dad told him, to take some time off before finally quitting. I don't want him to quite Tay. I know that he must not want to see my face ever again. But I don't want to let go of him." So much desperation in so little words. Tay was flashed by all the emotions that he had never heard from his best friend before. "How long has he off?" "A couple more days. He is going to quite isn't he?" "The only thing you can do, is to go and talk to him. I don't know how else I can help you." Tay felt for Kinn, but what was he supposed to do, to make his suffering less. He had no influence on anything that would make his situation better. "Do you think that is a good idea? Do you think he wants to see me?" "I don't know, but it is the only thing you can do." Again, a loud sight. "Okay, I see you tomorrow, I guess." And he had hung up. Tay lowered his phone and stared blankly up at the roof. He just laid there and let his mind process what he had just heard. How did a person like Kinn lose his cool like that. It took him hours after that call, to finally fall asleep. 

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