Use Me, Darling

Part 29

Tay needed to distract himself from the whole Porsche Vegas situation. He wandered through the allies and streets. Stopping in front of a small tattoo shop. His eyes were focused on the pretty designs in the videos as an elderly man spoke to him. "Do you want one, son?" Even though he was tall and build like a bear his smile was nice and friendly. He was tattooed from head to toe. "I do. But my father wouldn't like that." Tay always wanted to get a tattoo, but Time and his father always had said how terrible they thought tattoos were, that Tay never could gather up the courage. "I am sorry, I need to go." He mumbled before hastily walking away. Even now he couldn't get up the courage to walk in and just do it. He even knew exactly which designs he would choose. Vegas also had a couple of tattoos and he looked so good with them, that Tay wanted to rip them out of skin and plant them in his own. Long after the sun had set, Tay went home. Avoiding his father as he made his way up to his room before falling to bed. Vegas had just texted him, that the mission went well and that everyone was safe, which made him feel a little bit more at ease as he finally drifted to sleep.

The next morning, he woke up shaking. For some reason, he had sweated all night long and now was freezing in his warm room. Tay felled as uneasy as he hasn't felt in a long time. He felt like he was drunk as he stumbled into his bathroom to take a shower an prepare himself for the day. As he felt ready to finally leave, he looked at his phone, that was also muted at night. He had multiple messages by Kinn and Vegas. It wasn't something unusual for him to have messages from Kinn and ever since Vegas and him had returned Vegas always texted him at night, even though he knew, that Tay was already asleep. Without much thought wasted he opened his chat with Kinn. "I am going to kill Vegas." "How dare he lay hands on my boy." "How could he do that." "I am on my way to him. Pry to god, I will not find them doing what I think they are going to do." Tay swallowed hard. It felt like his heart had just dropped. He had hoped, that nothing would happen after Vegas had texted him the mission was successful. But obviviosly there still had been going on a lot. He felt betrayed. No matter if they were an official couple or not, Vegas promised him, not to hurt him and treat him better, then Time did, However, what he had done that night, probably was prove that he wasn't even the slights better then Time. Tears of anger and frustration riesed in Tay's eyes as he with trembling fingers opend his chat with Vegas. "Tay..." "I know that Kinn has probably already texted you." "I am sorry..." "I didn't want to do all that, but my dad." "I am sorry. Please let me explain tomorrow in our usual spot. I will answer you every question. Please." A sob, like the sound of an dying animal left Tay's body. He really did it. He really just was like Time. All men must be the same. Full heartedly he throw his phone against the wall. He didn't want to leave his room ever again. Not look at another man in his whole life again. All they seemed to be capable of was cheating and hurting and Tay was done being hurt. He got into his situationship with Vegas because he promised to be different. However he turned out to be just like them. A liar and cheater. Tay screamed. It was all to much. His head and heart seemed to explode with every breath he took, the pain deep within himself got more and more painful. Rushing through his body from his heart down to the edges of his toes and up to his hair. Hugging himself in an attemped to give himself some comfort. Slowly rocking his body back and fourth. That was why he didn't want to get together with Vegas. He told him, that he was able to proof him wrong, That Vegas wasn'tr like the other ones but now he was there sitting on his bedroom floor screaming and crying in pain and sadness over the man, that promised him not to hrut him. Tay had enough of it. He was sick of it. He didn't want to carry on any more. Smile to the bad game that everyone seemed to play with him. Eagerly he got up to his bathroom and searched for something that would ease his pain, before he left out another scream of frustration. He would not let him see, what he had caused to him. He would not let him see, that he had just cried. If he was quick enough now he would still be in time for his first class and no one would knew, how much just had gotten hurt again. And Vegas could wait forever in his stupid hiding spot. He wouldn't show up there. Never ever again. Quickly he got rid of all the traces for his sadness before taking off to class.

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New part guys. A bit eraly, but I don't know if i will find the time tomorrow to uploade this part.

I am back at university now, so I hope that I am going to upload more frequently now.

See you soon.

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