Use Me, Darling

Part 50

"Vegas, you can't send me stuff. Kinn just freaked out because he was scared that you would become a safety issue." Tay cried out loud. He still hadn't left the sadness behind himself, even though his tears had stopped for now. "I am sorry darling. Are you okay?" Vegas asked in his voice that was as sweet as honey. "I just stood here in front of my best friend, not being able to say anything. The only thing I could do, was to let him scream at me further and further, till he would trust me without knowing who you were." Sobbed Tay. He didn't even wanted to talk about it. He just wanted to pull the blanket back up over his head and go pack into his perfect dream world. "I am sorry darling. I am so sorry that we are never going to be able to be open about this." He could hear the sadness in Vegas voice, which made his heart break even more. There it was again. The thing that Tay already knew before, but still couldn't fully wrap his head around. The words that made his heart ache a little by little. "But still, thank you. Your other flowers slowly started to dry up." Tay, tried to push the bad and sad thought a side while looking at the basket. "Let's take a look at what you have gotten me." He wanted to cheer Vegas up, but subconsciously he knew, that he just tried to distract them from the harsh reality that would come crashing down sooner or later. As if he was doing an unwrapping video, he described every single thing Vegas had gotten him in great detail, acting as if Vegas had no clue of the contents of this basket. And Vegas played along, waiting patiently for Tay to finish describing before giving a noise of understanding from himself.

After Tay had finally finished his unwrapping,Vegas toke back the word. "Are we going to see each other today. I would liketo see a movie with you." Vegas sounded a little coy which made Tay smile. Hefelt like a teenage couple, that had just gotten in a relationship and had noclue how to act around each other. Tay agreed. How could he had said no, afterVegas had gotten him such a pretty basket with so many great things. He stillneeded to repay him for it. Against evening the two of them would meet. Again,somewhere in the middle of nowhere to then walk together to the cinema in thedisguises that they had used last time. Tay tried to focus himself onto somework for his classes but was barely able to read one sentence without gettingdistracted again. How had he managed to get through all this? How did he end uphere? So much had changed in such a short time. If you would have told him justtwo months ago, that he would finally break up with Time for good, Tay wouldhad laughed at your face, but now he was already seeing someone else and slowlybut surely fell for him more and more. Even though he didn't want it to happen.Even though he just wanted to use Vegas, as he had told him to do, he hadn'tbeen able to stop himself from falling for him. Nervous as he rarely had beenhe made himself on the way to meet with Vegas. He still felt terrible for Kinn.His reaction was absolutely justifiable as well as his sadness over the wholesituation. Still How could he tell him what he had been doing behind his back.He needed to talk with Vegas. See what he would say. Maybe he had an idea ofhow to work this out. His heart started to race again, as he parked his car infront of the cinema. He tried to take a couple of deep breaths to calm himself,but as soon as he stepped out of the car, his heart started to race again. Eventhough he was still a good bit away from the entrance he already had made outVegas, who was standing in front of it. Making his heart speed up even more. Hecould see a happy smile form on Vegas lips, as he recognized the small figurethat was walking towards him. Slowly he took a couple of steps forward andopened his strong arms, for his good boy. Tay quickly glanced around, checkingif there was anyone who would see them. Just to started running right intoVegas' arms after he has reassured himself, that no one was watching. Suckingin his incredible smell that made Tay feel like he was home. "Hello, good boy."Vegas whispered softly before kissing Tay's forehead. Tay smiled warmly andquickly pecked Vegas lips. "Hello, handsome." Both smiling brightly entered thecinema. Tay wasn't really interested in the movies that were shown, he justwanted to spend some time with Vegas. Vegas stared at the screen which showedthe different movies that were currently running, debating which one Tay wouldprefer, before choosing a simple Korean romcom. He felt the same way that Taydid, it didn't matter what they would be watching, what matters was, that theyare together. Vegas paid for everything, even though Tay offered to pay forsomething. It wasn't like the money they spend had any value to them, butstill, the fact that Vegas persisted on paying made Tay's heart flutter. Hejust mumbled quietly thank you before cuddling himself closer to Vegas. Theywere absolutely the annoying couple that couldn't respect the peace of thepublic but Tay didn't care about that. He could only see Vegas in public, whenelse was he supposed to recharge his batteries? The theater was pretty emptyeven though, the first commercial had already stared to run. All the way in theback, were their seats completely hidden in the darkness. Tightly holding ontoeach other they let themselves sink into the seats, not wanting to lose contactfor even the slightest second. Both of them were as addicted as depending ineach other's touch. Tay tried to watch the movie, but he could help himself,but to drift away in his thoughts, while Vegas had only eyes for him and thescreen didn't matter anymore for neither of them.

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Hello.
I know that this update is much quicker than you guys would have expected. However I decided to upload a new part today, after I heard the devastating news of Moonbin's passing. If you don't know him. He was an Idol in the group ASTRO. My condolences go out to his fans, family and friends.
I decided to upload today, as I can guess that some of my readers are probably kpop fans and now are suffering underneath the terrible news. This upload is here to give you some kind of content that is not going to be about his death, which usually is hard to come by in times like this but often needed.
I am myself devastated by these news, eventhough I am not to much of a fan of his group or himself. He just seemed like such a nice and sweet human being, that I am shattered to pieces.
If you struggle with mental health issues reach out for help. The earlier you get professional help, the higher are the chances of getting better. Further on, I want to point out, that suicide is most commently the last symptom of a long history of mental struggles, especially depression. People who committed are not taking the easy way out. They have fought but sadly lost there fight to such an deadly disease.
Fly high, and my you have finally found salvation from your suffering and peace, Moonbin. <3