Use Me, Darling

Part 51

Tay didn't knew what had happened in the movie as the theater slowly lit up again and the screen showed the end credits. Confused he looked up at Vegas, how could have 200 minutes passed already. He felt like they just had entered the cinema a second ago. "I guess the movie is over." Vegas whispered before leaning in to give Tay a small kiss on the cheek, making Tay giggle slightly before softly hitting Vegas. They really were that annoying couple. "Let's go, get some food. Or what do you wantgood boy?" Tay nodded softly. Slowly they made their way to a cheap restaurantenjoying each other's presence without talking. "I know this will drag themood. But I need to know, what has happened to you?" Tay chocked on the coke hewas drinking. "What do you mean?" he acted clueless, as if what had happened tohim, had been nothing. But that wasn't true. The memories hurt so much that hewanted to forget them forever but that wasn't possible. Vegas Was consideringto just let it slide, as he saw the discomfort Tay was in, but the questionswere burning in his mind and his head kept spinning. He needed to know, who andwhat was the reason for Tay's tattoo. "If you don't want to talk about it isfine. But I know you know what I mean." Vegas really did not want to push Tayto far, but the questions were killing him. Tay nodded and stayed silent. Vegashad already given up on an answer as Tay raised his voice again. "I... I was veryyoung when it happened." Tay mumbled more to himself, then to Vegas, but Vegaswas relived. He would finally figure out what had happened to his good boy. "I justhad turned 13. And I was pretty naïve at that age. My dad always took me alongto meet his clients and the other important people, to give me an inside intomy future. It was the first dinner event that I attended." Tay took a break.His voice had trembled while reliving the memories of that night again. Nervouslyhe played with the ring around his hand, just like he had done back then, whenhe told Kinn about what had happened. Vegas tried to put on his warmest gaze.His eyes wanted to encourage Tay to continue, without needing to speak out thewords loud. "It was definitely not a place for a 13-year-old, but my dadthought it would be fine. It was a small dinner party, but the more the nightcontinued the more the people kept drinking. I lost my father after the dinnerwas done and people got up from the table." Slowly Tay's vision got blurryagain. He didn't want to cry about it again. He had done it so many timesbefore, but he still wasn't able to keep his cool, when he thought back about whathad happened to him. Vegas had reached out for his lover's hand. Cold sweetgreeted him, but he didn't mind it. He just wanted to let Tay know that he wasthere, as Tay had just been staring onto his own hands, since he had started totalk to Vegas. "I guess I looked like an easy target all alone like that. Itried to stay a little out of it. I mean I didn't knew anyone there, so thebest thing I could think about, was staying at the side and watch everyone tillmy dad would show up again. That was when he approached me. He knew who I wasfrom the beginning on. He claimed to be the son from one of dads that had seenme already as a tiny baby. I just nodded. He wasn't as old as the other peopleat that party, probably the only person that was somehow close to my age.Probably as old as we are now. I don't know. So, I chatted with him. I meanwhat was I supposed to do. And he was nice and funny. He told me that hethought that these parties were boring and understood the situation I was in,at least that is what I thought. He convinced me to drink some drinks with him,he said that this was the only way, parties like that were even the slightsenjoyable. That was the first time I ever touched alcohol. I just did whateverhe told me. I mean who wouldn't. He was cool and handsome and fun. After sometime, when I was drunk enough, I guess. He led me to a room and started totouch me and kiss me. I didn't even knew what was happening. In the beginning Itried to keep up with him. Tried to make me enjoy it. I always knew that Iliked men and how could I resist such a good-looking man." Vegas could imaginewhat happened further, he didn't need Tay to speak further. But Tay spokefurther after a short breath. "You know how children are at that age, they alltalk about who they would fuck and are horny devils. Everyone wants to be thefirst to lose their virginity. However, as he started to let his hands slideunder my cloths I couldn't stand it anymore. I tried to push him off, told himto stop but he just laughed at me. He laughed at me struggling against him. Ican still hear his disgusting laugh ringing in my ear, whenever I think about thatnight. He striped me down and raped me. I... I don't know for how long he didthat. I just gave up at some point and hoped that he would stop soon. After hehad finished, he just got up and left. Leaving me naked, bruised and barelyconscious in my own blood and sweet." Tay didn't want to go into too muchdetail. The memories in his head were still too vivid for that. The pain toorealistic. The fear too close. Tears streamed down his pretty face, as he saidthere, feeling again like the boy his Rapist had left behind. Unable to move orspeak, lost, alone and in pain. "Thank you for telling me. Come here, goodboy." Vegas whispered softly while pulling the trembling body into a warm hug,while his head thought of a thousand ways, he could torture the person that haddone that to Tay in the best possible way. He wanted to make him suffer, lethim fight against death, barely not crossing the line to death. Struggling inthe weird place in between life and death. And he was supposed to do so, aslong as Vegas could. Slowly breaking his will to live and beyond that wouldVegas take him. Softly he rocked Tay's frail body, that felt so weak again. 

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Who would have thought that. Tay apparently has been through some stuff already. Poor little Tay.