Use Me, Darling

Part 52

"Kinn found me back then. He was supposed to attend that event as well, but he and his father had run late together with Takhun. He knew that I was supposed to be there, so he went to look for me with him. They father took me to the hospital and told my father. It was even scarier than being raped. My father took me out of the hospital before I could even be examined. He just stared at me with his cold emotionless gaze and judged me for being so weak. He said it was too embarrassing to bring me to the hospital, so he called our private doctor to take a look at me home. His cold eyes for the next months told me all I needed to know. If I wasn't his only child, the only person that would be able to take over his business, he would have left me there in my own blood, to suffer and slowly bleed out, just so he didn't need to look at the embarrassment of a son, that I am. After that, he promised me to Time and his family, under the condition that they would look out for me as well. Ever since then, he never looked at me the same. I wasn't anymore the son he could be proud of, that he would gladly show of to his clients and praise into the sky in front of them. He never took me to the events after that. Shortly after that, my mother left for the US. At first, they said it was just for business, but she never came back. I know now that she divorced my father and has started a new life there, with a new man and even had some more children. I guess she could face me anymore after what he had done to me." Tay was now full-on crying. His voice was filled with so much pain, that Vegas had struggled to understand him. But he heard all his pain. He heard all the things that his father and mother had done. And it broke his heart even more. Now he didn't want to only torture Tay's rapist but Tay's whole family as well. But he kept a calm front while his inside was at war and a hell for every single person that Tay had just mentioned. Deep anger letting Vegas devilish ideas getting worst and worst. "I didn't talk about it for a long time. I just swallowed it down, and never mentioned it to anyone. I made sure to always be surrounded by a couple of people so no one would try to do it again. I felt as if I walked around with a huge sign above my head that screamed about what had happened. It took me a lot of time, till I could let people get close to me again. Even Time wasn't allowed to be to close to me. He got at mad at me at some point. I mean who can't understand him. He just wanted to be able to live like a normal teenager his age and sleep with his boyfriend and all that suff. But I couldn't. Even after two years had passed, and that was when Time lost his patience and screamed at me, why I couldn't let him touch me. So, I need to tell him about had happened. Otherwise, he wouldn't have stopped. He was pretty understanding then. He didn't push me anymore. Even though he made sure, that I was comfortable with him, I gave into him way early then I wanted. I just wanted to get it behind me and hoped that he wouldn't need to get some more any time soon after that. It took me two more years till I started to enjoy what Time was doing to me and I finally got the sex drive that everyone else was talking about in school. But still till today, some touches break me. Make me relive every second of that night and make me fall back into that dark hole, that took me so long to crawl out of." Finally, Tay looked up into Vegas soft eyes. His eyes red and puffy from all the crying he had done. Making Vegas relive all the pain that Tay must had been put through. "It's okay. I will never let something like this happen to you again. Whoever dares to touch you like that, will be dead before even formulating that into a thought. I promise. No one is allowed to make my good boy, feel like this again." He softly kissed Tay's forehead before leaning his own against it and gently look into Tay's puffy eyes. "Thank you." Tay whispered letting himself melt deeper into his warm hug. "Thank you for trusting me enough to talk about it. I know it must be hard for you." Gently he petted Tay's back. Tay nodded. Unable to talk anymore. The memories were too painful, to further think back. Tay would forever be thankful for Kinn and Takhun, simply for being there and helping him get away.

Tay didn't want to leave Vegas. And Vegas didn't want to leave Tay. But as always, their ways needed to part again. Leaving one another to go back into their own cruel worlds. Vegas and Tay had sat together for a long time, after Tay was done talking about the things, he had experienced that night. Vegas and he stayed quiet. Just gently rocked back and forth while calming down and sucking in their smell. Sadly, they needed to part soon after that. As Tay didn't want to make Kinn worried about him. And Vegas needed to do somethings for his father. Gently Vegas kissed his boy goodbye. He stared after the car that his lover was leaving in for quite some time. Even long after the car had gotten lost withing the traffic of Bangkok he still stared at the streets, as if he his eyes would be able to turn back time and make the car with his lover appear again. 

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Do you guys thing Vegas reacted right to those news?