Use Me, Darling

Part 30

He was surprised when he saw a smiling Kinn in his classroom. "What happened yesterday night?" He whispered as he let himself sink into a chair next to his best friend. "I came as Vegas just put his discusting lips onto his. But I made him pay for it and I am going to make him suffer a even more, now that Porsche isn't hear to see it all taking place. Did I mention that he was the one that wanted to rape Porsche in that hotel, when he went missing?" Kinn smiled deviloush as he explained. He must had already a great plan to make Vegas suffer the consequences of his actions. Tay however couldn't help himself. Hastily he tried to blink away the tears. Knowing that Vegas had tried it anpther time before, after he had already slpet with him, was like a punch in his face. Even tough back then, Vegas had been nothing else then a one night stand, knowing it now, made Tay want to scream again. He wanted to rip out Vegas beating heart and make him suffer all the pain, he had suffered n the last couple of days. "Make him suffer Kinn. Make him regret ever doing that." Tay whispered trying to control his shaking voice. Kinn looked at him surprised. "You are never that revengeful, usually you tell me to stay calm, but now you tell me to do it even more. Is everything alright?" Tay nodded: "I just want him to pay, for laying hands on someone. Rape is the most disgusting thing one can do. It is even worst then killing, because the victim will always need to carry around the pain, shame and agony." Kinn nodded. He agreed with Tay, however seeing him talk like that made him swallow. Kinn had done something like that to Porsche and he had forgiven him, just like that he was okay with it. But Tay was right. It was something that the victim would carry around with themselves for the rest of their lives. Something like a burning mark, that just never faded. If it was fear or hatred, it was always in the victim and wouldn't be gone with simple getting revenge. "How is Porsche doing?" Tay tried to distract himself. At least he wanted to know that Vegas hadn't hurt him. "He is fine. Let's say, we talked it out last night and now he is at home getting some rest from the mission yesterday." Kinn smiled slightly. Tay could barely remember when had seen Kinn as happy as he was right now. He was happy for hm but the sadness over Vegas, was overweighting all of it. He just let the class pass. He didn't take notes, he didn't listen. He just sat there staring in front of him, till the lecture was done. He followed Kinn and Time to grab some lunch. He didn't take one for himself, as he felt like he would throw up, as soon as he started to eat something. He just sipped on his water and hoped the day would fate faster. As he had finally left the last lecture and said goodbye to Kinn, he was ready to go home and let his strong front crumble. All day long he had seen Vegas lurking around them. And he tried his best to act as if he hadn't seen him, however from time to time his eyes were unavoidable. Just as he wanted to open his car door, he was stopped by Time. "So your little toy has left you. Obviously. Why else would you be so down now." A big grin laid on his face. "I don't know what you mean." Tay tried to push him aside and open his car door. "I think you know exactly what I mean. You fucked someone else to get back at me, but now he dropped you." Time laughed in satisfaction, as he meet the annoyed eyes of Tay. "What makes you think that?" Tay tried to play down his emotions. He needed to know how much Time knew. "Your car is always here, when I arrive but you barely make it in time for class. You smiled like an idiot most of the time and always needed to leave as soon, as the lecture was done. You basically disappeared before showing up again. And baby I know what you look like, after you had sex. I have seen that look countless of times on you. It was obvious. The only puzzle piece missing, was who, but that has seemed to resolve itself, as I see you barely being able to hold back your little tears. Tay sighted. "Oh no. You got me. However, I don't know, how that is of any concern for you?" Tay was actually relieved, that Time didn't knew, who had been doing him, in between classes from time to time. "As he seemed to have fucked up as well. I just wanted to tell you again, that you will find no one, that is better than me. I at least love you and make my mistakes up to you." Time leaned against Tays car, while grinning from ear to ear in satisfaction. "I think you got that wrong. You are the worst of the worst and I will not tolerate your stupid ass again. By the way, he was by far better then you ever had been in bed." With that Tay pushed Time away, entered his car and finally driving off, while still hearing Time laugh and saying, that no one could be better then him to Tay.

Tay didn't even made it home, before breaking downbehind the wheel. Just in time he pulled over before his emotions overtook him.Leaving him to scream in pain and the tears to make his vision blurry. Theheadache hadn't left him all day, but now it intensified again. As well as thesharp pain in his heart. Time had been right, Vegas hadn't been any better tohim, than Time. Still there was nothing that would make Tay change his mind. Hedidn't want to the energy he had invested to stay away from Time, to be awaste. He needed to stay strong and distant. Didn't people always say, arebound was a good idea, after a breakup, to get over your last lover? Then whydid it need to hurt Tay that much. What was he supposed to do now, get arebound for his rebound? He buried his wet face in the palm of his hands.Trying to make himself feel, as if someone else would lend him a shoulder tocry on.

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