Use Me, Darling

Part 54

Tay made space for Kinn on his bed. Kinn shook his head, as he wanted to shake away a bit of his anger before sitting down. "I... You remember that night, that we went out together with Porsche and Time and Porsches' friends?" Kinn opened his mouth as if he was about to say something but closed it again. Instead, he just nodded. "Well, After I had seen Time making out with Porsches' friend, I just wanted to get away and then I ran into Vegas, he offered to take me home." Tay swallowed while waiting for a sign from Kinn to continue talking. Again, Kinn nodded. "I was drunk and mad and upset, otherwise I would have never gone with him. But I did, on our way, his bike broke down. We had no reception, and it was pouring. We went to a motel and one thing led to the other." "Are trying to tell me, that that idiot has fucked you since then." Kinn interrupted Tay. "No!... I mean yes. But no not really. I told him, that what happened that night, was a one-time thing and never would happen again. And I really didn't want to see him again. However, Time just was a dick, the whole time and I couldn't stop think about the stupide way he behaved. But whenever he got me mad, Vegas was there to calm me down. He just always showed up when I needed someone. He was there for me, when I was sick. He stayed with me the whole time till I was better again. He was there when Time made me loos my mind and tried to convince that I couldn't live without him. After you were kidnaped and I visited you, Time was being a total dick again. I just wanted to get away and forget about him once and for all." Tay stopped. He looked at Kinn which face slowly had softened as he heard Tay talk. "That is when I called Vegas and gave into his deal. He told me to use him till I would find someone better. Someone that was better than Time and that I could see without any bad feelings. And that is what I did. I just wanted to get away from Time and Vegas seemed to be the only person that was able to get me away from these stupid thoughts I always had about Time. And before I knew it. I caught feelings for him." Tay swallowed. Kinn took a deep breath. "You..." He paused himself to take another deep breath. His eyes glued shut he shook his head. Trying to calm the raging storm inside of him and show his friend the empathy he had for his situation. But he couldn't. The betrayal was too heavy on his shoulders. "I know that I shouldn't be seeing him. I am aware. And I tried to stay away from him, but..." Tay swallowed. He can't. He wasn't able to stay away anymore. "I... I know that I betrayed you. And that was the only reason, I could stay away from him for so long, but now I feel like I have tried a drug, that made me addicted. No matter what I do, I can't seem to be able, to stay away from him. The more I try to, the stronger the pull back to him gets." Tay wanted to apologies. To tell Kinn, that he would stop seeing Vegas from now on, but he couldn't. It would just be an empty lie. Kinn stayed further quiet. He just stared onto the ground, keeping his composure. "I am sorry. I am a terrible friend and I get that you are mad. I would be too. If you want me to leave, that is fine. If you don't want to see me anymore I will accept it, but if you ask me to stay away from him, my answer is no, I can't." Tay sounded stronger than he actually felt. He sounded so confident but if Kinn actually asked him to do all the things, Tay had agreed to doing, he wasn't sure, what he would actually do.

"Leave." Kinns vice sounded so cold, it could make one's blood freeze. Tay just looked at him confused. What did he mean with 'Leave'? "I want you to leave for now." Kinn got back up. His fists still clinging into themselves. Tay nodded, but Kinn didn't even took another glance at him, before he left the room again. Tay wasn't sure what Kinns next move would be. He was scared that everything Vegas and he had build up so carefully, would crumble underneath Kinns anger. With shaking hands, he packed together his things, while his mind traveled back and forth between what Kinn would possibly do, and what Tay himself was supposed to do now. He wasn't ready to return to his father and the screams that would await him at home. He couldn't go to Vegas, or else everyone would know by tomorrow that Vegas was his lover. The only thing that he could do, was to go into some hotel and stay there for a bit. However, he couldn't go to one of the expensive ones, as the were mainly owned by Times family, which meant, that Time would start to bother him again. 

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Oh guys if you would only know how much i panicked today, after i couldn't find the up to date version of my story. I literally had a full blown panic attace as i couldn't find a version which included the last 30-20 pages I had already written. But now I have found it. 

Thank you for reading.