Bucky's Hope (A Bucky Barnes Love Story)

Chapter 35

Hope's POV:

"I've wanted to do that for a while too," I whispered to James.

James smirked at me, "Yeah, and what took you so long?"

I looked him in the eyes, "The perfect moment but you beat me to it."

James's laughed, "I hope that was okay?"

"It was perfect for me in every way possible, don't doubt that," I stroked his cheek and then pulled him toward me and kissed him this time, he again sweeper his tongue across my bottom lip asking for access, I granted it allowing him to slip inside and deepen the kiss once more making me moan again, I had to pull away after a few minutes to breathe again.

"Damn, who knew you were a good kisser?" I asked James.

"Glad to know I still got it," his voice was husky as he moved and started to nibble my ear and then moved to my neck, it sent a shiver down my spine but it was when he pulled me flushed against him that I froze completely, James must have felt me stiffen because he suddenly let me go and pulled away giving me space.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

For whatever reason I could not hear James' voice let alone even notice him because I suddenly found myself back in that dark room, tied up, and praying to God that they did not come back, I crouched down to the ground and curled myself into a ball, I started to have trouble breathing.

"Hope, Hope, HOPE!"

"Hope, come back to me, please."

I was still curled up on the floor and felt someone try to touch me but I flinched away.

"Hey, no, it's okay, your safe, but now I need you to breath for me."

The voice I could hear at last was calming and soothing, so I tried to do what it said but still struggled.

"I...can't...do it...please...help me."

"Please don't fight me for what I'm about to do ok."

The next thing I knew I felt someone's lips on mine, they were soft and gentle, then I felt hands caress my cheeks, one was warm and the other was cold.

"James."

I felt my body relax at that moment when James pulled away at last I found that I was breathing normally again, I took in my surroundings and saw that I was at home and that I was safe, I felt the tears escape as they ran down my cheeks.

"Shh, it's okay, your safe and sound."

James soothed me as he wiped my tears away, I could see the concern for me in his eyes.

"What happened?"

I was silent, scared to tell him about the panic attack and the flashback.

"I'm sorry, um, I-I need to go."

I got up and tried to run but James stopped me, he grabbed hold of my wrist and pulled me back to him, my back against his chest, his arms around me holding me in place, but it caused me to panic again and I tried to wiggle out of his grasp but it was too strong.

"NO! Please no, not again."

"Hope, it's okay, please calm down or you're going to give yourself another panic attack," James said as he tried to calm me down but it wasn't working.

"No, please no, don't touch me, not again."

Bucky's POV:

I was holding Hope against me trying to get her to calm down but it wasn't working, she was moving like crazy now trying to get out of my grasp, and the tighter I held her the more she moved that she was starting to thrash around.

She soon became desperate to get out of my hold that she elbowed me in the face, the shock of what happened caused me to let her go and she dropped to the ground but then quickly got up and made a run to the pen leading to the pasture in the back of the barn where the horses were.

"Shit!"

It took me a moment to get my bearings before I could run after Hope to keep her from doing anything dangerous in her current state but I was not fast enough. With the running head start she got, Hope got to the fence and jumped it then ran off again, next thing I know I heard her scream out Midnight's name.

"MIDNIGHT!"

He had wandered off earlier to join the other horses out in the pasture, I saw him look up from where he was and saw Hope running. Midnight took off heading towards her, I ran and jumped the fence with ease and ran to Hope to keep her away from harm as I was worried that Midnight might do something to Hope to see her in the state she was but I was very wrong.

Hope was still running to Midnight, who got to her before I could and he suddenly stopped in front of Hope which gave her a moment to mount him bareback, and before I could stop her, Hope took off with Midnight, I watched as they got to the fence and thought she would stop but no, Midnight jumped the fence with ease and took off in a gallop.

"Shit, shit, shit, this is bad, Tony is going to kill me for sure."

By now all the commotion caused Matt and the guys to come running over to where I was, I had jumped the fence again when they stopped in front of me.

"What's going on?" Matt asked.

I wasn't sure how to explain it, all I knew was that one moment Hope and I were kissing, then the next she went into a panic attack. I had managed to calm her down for a moment but then she got worse again and now is gone.

"Um, I don't know."

"What do you mean, what happened, why was Hope screaming?" Matt demanded now, I could hear the protective tone in his voice.

"I DON'T KNOW! We were fine one moment and then suddenly she's having a panic attack, I got her to calm down for a moment but then she tried to run and when I stop her, she got hysterical, elbowed me in the face, then jumped the fence and took off on Midnight," I explained.

"Wait, what, a panic attack!"

I noticed that all the men suddenly gave each other the same worried expression and I started to connect the dots. Her flinching away from my touch, what she was screaming, and then the nightmare she had all those months back, I prayed that what I was thinking was wrong but my gut told me I wasn't.

Before I could ask Matt was already telling the guys to get their horses ready so they could go look for Hope.

"Let me come too."

"No, it's best you head to the house and tell everyone that Hope is missing but we are already out searching for her tell Mrs. Williams to call the doctor and have them here ASAP," Matt said.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

A/N: Let the drama begin!!!!