Bucky's Hope (A Bucky Barnes Love Story)

Chapter 58

Hope's POV:

"How are you doing today, Hope?"

I held back a scoff as I saw in front of Dr. Price for our session.

"Not sure how to answer that, so much has happened in the last few days and I feel like everything is starting to catch up all at once."

"What do you want to start with?"

I took a deep breath and told her everything that happened the last few days.

"You were not kidding, that is a lot to take in, in such a short amount of time, now, how are you handling everything emotionally?"

"To tell you the truth I feel a combination of numb and drained at the same time."

"I would be worried if you weren't but you seem to be handling everything well unless it's a front your putting up to not worry everyone else and to keep yourself from breaking?"

"No, I've already broken down when everything happened, now I'm just trying to take everything one day at a time, and not just for myself but also for Emma because she needs me now more than ever."

At my words, Dr. Price immediately smiled at me.

"What?" I asked in confusion.

"You are stepping into motherhood quite well, and in such a short amount of time no less."

I was silent as I was unsure of what to say.

"Hope, don't overthink this, and you told me that this is what Kaitlyn and Daniel wanted."

"I know, but it's still hard knowing that they are gone and will never get the chance to see Emma grow up."

"But you will make sure that their memory lives on and Emma will know about her parents because they will live on through her and you."

"Your right, I know your right but it's hard to keep the dark thoughts away."

"Hope, what you are currently feeling and experiencing is all normal for someone who is going through a loss, even more one that just happened a few days ago so cut yourself some slack."

"You know, after I signed the adoption papers, the attorney gave me one last letter that Kaitlyn left."

"What did she write to you?"

"I don't know yet, forgot about it until this morning when I saw the letter."

"Why haven't you opened it?"

"A little scared to tell you the truth."

"About what?"

I was silent for a moment.

"Hope?"

I looked up at Dr. Price, "Sorry."

"Why are you afraid to read the letter?"

I sighed, "Because reading it will make me face the reality that she is gone and is never coming back, that I've lost my best friend and sister, and Emma lost her mother."

"Hope, yes she is gone but she won't be forgotten because she has you to keep her memory alive, and through you, Emma will get to know her mother, now, do you want and try to read the letter here?"

I looked down at the envelope in my hand, seeing my name in Katelyn's handwriting.

"I think I want to do it by myself once I get home, somewhere quiet."

"Good, and remember that I'm a phone call away if you need to talk, okay," Dr. Price then looked at the clock, "And our time is up now, same time next week?"

"Sure."

I got up grabbed my bag, envelope in hand, and walked to my truck to head back home.

When I got back to the ranch I went to the back pasture and called for Winter, she immediately ran over to me, I clipped the lead to her halter and walked into the barn, and began to tack her up.

Once I was done I mounted her and we headed off to my favorite spot which was by the river. When I got there I dismounted Winter took her saddle off, laid out the blanket, and sat down.

Sitting there with only the sounds of nature helped to calm me. I pulled the letter out of my back pocket and just stared at it instead of opening it. It wasn't until Winter nudged me that I realized I had become lost in thought.

"Alright Kaitlyn, what did you want me to know?"

I opened the envelope took the letter out and began to read it, all the while I could hear Kaitlyn's voice.

Dear Hope,

I'm sure you are wondering by now what this letter is about, and you're probably also wondering why I never just told you instead of writing it. The thing is that I have been doing some research for a way to help you. I know that your biggest dream was to be a mother and that because of the attack you believe that chance is completely gone. But it's not, Hope, you can still make this dream a reality. After you were released from the hospital I talked with Dr. Gray. You see, Hope, you probably did not hear the doctor say this, he had said that it could be difficult for you to get pregnant and carry a child but not impossible. And with help from Dr. Gray, we think we have found a way to help you, so, when you are ready to go to Dr. Gray, she will go through everything we found so that you can take the next step to making your dream a reality. I love you, Hope, with all my heart, you are the sister I never had and I know you will be a wonderful mother one day, you already do such a great job with Emma.

Kaitlyn

I reread the letter a few more times and then put it away in the saddle bag. Afterward, I lay on the blanket and just looked out to the sky as I thought over Kaitlyn's last words, wondering if what she wrote me was true.

Laying there for a while the heat was starting to get to me so I got up and started to undress, deciding to take a dip in the river to cool off. I waded into the water until it was up to my waist and then plunged in fully then came back for air a moment later. All the while never noticing that I wasn't alone.

A/N: FINALLY, at last, the moment is here, after 50+ chapters we are getting that moment. So, who do you think is watching her?😏😏