TW: Numbness, depression symptoms
I need to leave now. If I leave in the morning people will see me. I have my bag. In it is everything I need. For the first time I think in forever, I actually have a clear mind and clear view of what I want and need. Not to state the fucking obvious but I'm hurt, and I don't want to feel that way anymore. Here, at 3 AM, on my fucking birthday, writing letters at my desk, trying note to wake up Ginny.
If I leave, will anyone care?
If I leave, will anyone look for me?
If I leave, will everyone's life be better?
That's the only question I know the answer too, yes.
I swing the bag over my shoulder and glance at Ginny one last time. She never did anything wrong to me. She was always my best friend. Gently, as to not wake her, I put the envelope on her side table. I quietly make my way to Hermione's dorm and put a letter next to her as well.
Then to Harry. And Ron.
Slowly, I go to the common room and write the long dreaded letter. The one where I essentially break someone's heart. The part where I guilt trip someone.
Mattheo
If you're reading this then that means I'm gone. Not dead gone, but not here at this place anymore. I wish I could say it isn't your fault but that would be a lie. And I know I lied to you a lot, and I'm sorry. If I could take it back, I would. But that is precisely why I'm leaving. If I don't, whenever I see your face, I'll be seeing the love of my life who I betrayed. I'll be seeing a broken person. I'll be seeing a person I couldn't bring myself to tell the truth to, even for our love. I don't know what this means to us. All I know is we will likely not see each other again, not for a while anyway.
Even if I never end up seeing you again, I will never, ever, forget the love you showed me. And I will also never forget how I never deserved you, or any of your qualities.
You hurt me tonight. You hurt me with your words. You hurt me with your concern. You hurt me with the look of betrayal in your eyes. And the worst part is, I know it's my fault. Take care of Harry for me, and I trust you will never spiral and go down the dark path.
XO, Snow
As quickly as possible, I fold the letter and put it in an envelope and give it to Mackie.
"Go," I lightly say. She'll know where to find me.
As I make my way outside to the grounds, I keep the invisibility cloak over me. I wonder what tomorrow will be like. What will my new life be like? That will be answered tomorrow, after I say my final goodbyes.
Short chapter again. Hope u guys liked it :)
It's kinda sad :(
Who else is left to say goodbye too?
What do we think Mattheo will do when he reads the letter?
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