Midnight in December (BINI Series #2)

Chapter 43: Mikha, I'm Asking Your Permission to ...

Mikha's POV

It's a rainy Sunday and we're still her, stuck in Davao. Locals said there will be a super typhoon so we decided to stay here muna.

"Good morning, Mikhs! Gising na! They're waiting na downstairs so we could eat breakfast together daw." when I opened my eyes, I saw a smiling Aiah in front of me. She can fool me with her bright smiles but she can't fool me with her eyes. Parang malungkot siya pero pilit niyang tinatago sa mga ngiti niya.

When I didn't answer, she carefully lay down beside me and wrapped her hands on my waist. Our faces we're just half an inch apart. Sa gulat ko ay hindi ako nakagalaw. Shit! She's so close! Too close! I reminded myself but I can't move. She, too didn't move.

Napalunok ako ng ilang beses. Ang bilis bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Parang may mga naghahabulan sa sistema ko. Parang nawala lahat ng bagay sa paligid ko. At sa sandaling ito, naramdaman kong, umikot ang buo kong mundo kay Aiah.

I looked into those warm beautiful brown eyes. It made me calm, but at the same time, it consumed me. I was drowning. I was looking for an escape, for a life saver. But how can I look for a life saver if the person who's drowning me, is also the person who can save me? I never had her this close. Yung walang halong biro. Just an spontaneous moment I want to last forever.

I was too contented with this. Yung malapit siya sakin, sobrang lapit niya sakin pero pakiramdam ko pati siya ayaw niyang lumayo. To my surprise, she moved closer. Close enough to feel her forehead on mine. Close enough to let our noses touch. She closed her eyes, pero bago ko rin pinikit ang mga mata ko nakita ko ang maliit na ngiti na nabuo sa mga mapupula at manipis niyang labi.

I love her too much.

I love every bit of her.

"I love you." I whispered. Hindi ko yun sinasadya. Hindi ko inaakalang masasabi ko yun ng ganon kalakas. Para akong trinaydor ng dila at bibig ko. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Sa gulat ko, napamulat ako at lumayo sa kanya.

Tiningnan lang niya ako na para bang nagtatanong. Bakit ako lumayo? Kasi nasabi ko na naman yun sakanya.

Nasabi ko naman ang mga salitang yun na alam ko namang wala ring patutunguhan kasi hindi niya ako mahal higit pa sa kung anong meron kami ngayon. It's hard to love someone who can't love you back the way you wanted her too.