Midnight in December (BINI Series #2)

Chapter 38: Oh shit, I'm in love.

Aiah's POV

I just have to confirm something. I had to know what I felt after I heard her answer, then I knew what to feel for her. I wanted to confirm if I am indeed still in love with her. Lately, I've been really confused.

What will this damn heart do when I'll finally hear what she has to say. I collected my courage, I collected myself. I wanted to be brave. I have to take the risk again.

"Do you still love me?" I blurted out.

I crossed my fingers in my mind. Not knowing what answer I am hoping for. For a moment, she hesitated. Clearly confused of why I'm asking her this.

Then she finally spoke, "Of course. You're my one of best friends, remember?"

There was this sudden pain in my chest. It was familiar but very unfamiliar too at the same time.

I am hurt.

I hoped that she's lying. I wished that she'll take back what she told me first and tell me she still love me. Hearing her say that, I rested my head on her shoulders. I can feel my tears slowly building in my eyes. But I know I can't cry in front of her. My tears betrayed me. I felt a tear escaped from my left eye and I know that I just have to get away from her for a little while. I have to collect myself.

I need to keep my sane, because this realization that hit me right now is driving me crazy. For these past months, I have lost myself in her.

I have fallen in love with her again in the process of taking her back.

I inhaled deeply, like it was the last breath that I will take. But yes, in a way, it was the last breath I took because now, I am dying inside. So, this is how you felt when you tried to explain and I didn't listen? It was too painful.

Wala na ba talaga, Mikha?

I stood up. I need my space. Not too much space, because I know that I can't afford to lose my grip on her hands again. I can't let her go. I started walking away from her without even saying a word. She was startled, that's for sure because of the sudden change in my mood.