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Chapter 50 - Guilt Card

Chapter fifty
Sawyer,

Monday.

'I can't believe you didn't tell me you were back!' Hannah squealed through the phone.

'Uh, I did? I called you on Saturday night! The night I landed!'

'Oh, oops,' she laughed. 'Oh yeaaaah, I interrupted you and Nathan's shower sex, how could I forget' there it was again, her laugh.

'Hush!' I retorted − embarrassed. 'We weren't having shower sex alright?' If you knew me, you'd know that I almost never bring up conversations about anything sexual. I mean, sexual jokes yeah - all the time! Though, I never ever enjoyed speaking about sexual intercourse.

The main reason could be since I was − am a virgin. I don't see the problem with that. I do admit, people used to torment me for it. Before Nathan, I wouldn't say I was ever in a real relationship. Or, just wouldn't classify them as actual relationships.

All those boys, ( I say it like I've been with 36372 guys, no not that many, I swear ) they tormented me for being a virgin, even at 17. Which, was the age I was last romantically associated with someone. Sure, they forced me into having sex with them multiple times but I did stop them.

I mean, I suppose that's just the way guys are, huh? It wasn't entirely their fault since I didn't exactly get involved with the nicest of guys. Until Nathan. I know Nathan well enough to know that he wouldn't force me into anything - which makes everything clearer. Not to say that I was planning it but if I were to lose my virginity to anyone, I wouldn't regret a thing if it were Nathan.

'Sawyer Lea Scott!' Hannah yelled, snapping me back into reality.

'Hmm?'

'I asked if you and your little British boy would be up for a trip to six flags tomorrow?'

'Um, it sounds great but-'

'You better not bail on me, Scott. I mean, you already spent months in Gloucester without even telling me − your BEST FRIEND'

'Way to play the guilt card, huh?' I rolled my eyes, 'but yeah, that sounds great. Should I book the passes online or?'

'I'll do it, I'll do it!' Her cheery voice spoke, 'I'll email you the details. Don't bail on me asshole, aight byeeeee'

'Yeah y-' by then the line had already been cut.

I plugged my phone into the charger before realizing how messy my hair was. I ran a few fingers through it before it just got worse. I grabbed a black rubber band and tied my hair up into a messy bun.

I walked downstairs to see Nathan laying on the couch with a bunch of blankets surrounding him from earlier, eyes focused on the television. I popped my head up from behind the sofa, catching him by surprise.

'Sneaky,' he murmured before pulling me up.

I groaned in attempts of fighting him but clearly failed since my body was now above his. His body shifted inside, making space for mine beside his. I examined his face as he continued to focus on the television.

His green eyes focused, his perfectly defined jawline, his hair that was ruffled up and was starting to curl slightly. He tightened his grip before his eyes looking down at mine, 'yeah?'

'Nothing, i'm just looking at you' I smiled sheepishly before his head dipped in and placed a kiss on my forehead, 'Actually, I do have something to ask you,' I said, remembering the plans I'd discussed with Hannah just minutes ago.

'Hmm?'

'Well, Hannah suggested that maybe, we could go to six flags tomorrow? It's like this theme park and I think you'd enjoy it. I mean, don't get me wrong, there's nothing I love more than cuddling up on the couch with you, a bazillion blankets surrounding us while we have a movie marathon but-'

He placed a finger on my lips, 'I'd love to, Lea'

'Great,' I smiled right as he placed a kiss on my lips. I don't think I'll ever get used to that. The rush the goes through my veins the moment his lips press against mine. The sense of relief I get whenever he's with me, the way he makes me despise the male species a little less every day.

a/n − another short chapter but only because i'd rather write the rest in the next chapter. also, i've come to the conclusion that i'll probably end this book at 60 / 65 chapters since i've already got the plot and the ending figured out and i wouldn't want the story to get too draggy. love you, hope you like it xxo.