Adopted by R5 - My story

Chapter 7- Closed

I stared at my reflexion. Yep, I was in deep shit. The bikini fit perfectly but it showed my thighs and hips. My scars were all exposed. I used to selfharm very often at the orphanage, lately only seldom and in the 3 days I had spent at the Lynches' I resisted and never hurt myself. It was almost 4 months I didn't cut my wrists, so the scars were kinda fading, but I continued on my hips and thighs.
I didn't want them to find out and not like this for sure.
But I didn't have any other swimsuit and if I was careful enough maybe they wouldn't notice... I didn't have to show how nervous I was, otherwise they would understand something was wrong.
I sighed and got dressed over the bikini, I grabbed my backpack with a towel and a change and headed downstairs. There were Stormie and Rydel having breakfast, while the boys were just fooling around.
Stormie asked me if I wanted to join but I kindly replied saying I wasn't hungry. The truth is that I was too nervous to eat and socialise in general.
I sat on the couch next to Riker, who was playing GTA (already, it was like 9am). He reminded me of Connor and even tough he was legally my Dad, I looked up to him as a big brother.

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We pulled out in the waterpark parking lot, but no one else was there. There was a fence blocking the way.
Mark hopped down the car and went closer to read the sign on the fence.
After a while he came back
"I'm sorry guys, but it's closed until next week because of technical issues" he said.
"But they should have said it at least on their website!" Exclaimed Stormie.
I randomly glanced at Ross and he was looking down.
I whispered to him: " You checked the website, didn't you?"
He shook his head and I laughed. As he explained to the others that he forgot to check, he was blushing but he eventually joined out laughter.
We decided to go back home and find something else to do.
While going back home, I felt so relieved. I didn't have to worry about my body at least for a while, and it made me really happy. I didn't want my family to get worried.
Once home, I decided to practice guitar a bit, and since it was a sunny day I went outside.
I started doing some warming up exercises as usual and then I played a few songs to revise. I didn't play any R5 song, even tough I knew them all, because I was afraid they would judge me.
As I finished the last song, Rocky came up to me
"I heard you playing, you're really good. Where did you learn?"
"Thanks, my brother taught me."
"Oh" he smiled sadly "would you like to join the others for band rehearsal? I won't be there but they need a guitarist anyway."
He was asking me play with my favourite band. I was fangirling internally.
"Of course, I would love to"