Adopted by R5 - My story

Chapter 9- Caught

"What was that?"
I froze. He caught me. Now there's no turning back. I was so stupid, I got caught on the first days I spent there.
"I... it's just that... I'm cold" I said looking down. What a great liar I am...
"Hailie, look at me, honey" he said quietly. His tenderness was making me want to cry. I struggled to look up, and when I did I saw that Riker's face was serious like I had never seen him before. I was I deep shit, uh?
"Can I see your wrist?" He asked kindly. That's it, the moment that shouldn't have arrived, has just arrived.
"Please Riker" I said, my voice shaking.
He grabbed carefully my covered wrist and exposed it.
I was used to the sight, but he wasn't.
He gasped and I could see he was fighting back tears. Great, I made him upset.
"Just...why?" His voice was now higher than usual and quite shaky.
I shrugged. Why did I do that in the first place?
"I don't know, Riker. It made me feel better on the spur of the moment, but then you feel guilty and sadder than before. I know it's sick, but I can't stop" I said through tears. I wanted to hug him so bad, but he wanted to talk about it. I wasn't confortable at all, but I owed it to him.
"How long has this been happening?" He looked kind of pissed off, but he was trying to hide it.
"3 years...since I went to the orphanage" I felt so ashamed and worthless. I was a mess, and finally Riker would notice it.
"Is... Is there anything we can do to help you?" He asked.
"I... don't know... Ever since I've been here I didn't do anything though." He needed to know that, otherwise he would think it was his fault.
Then the silence fell. After a while I couldn't stand it anymore.
"Are you going to bring me back to the orphanage?"
"What?? Absolutely not! I never would, we all love you, Hailie. And I will help you going through your problems ok?" I nodded.
"Come here" he said with open arms. Finally I could hug him.
"I'm so sorry" I said, not really expecting him to hear. But apparently he did, and told me that it was okay and that it wasn't my fault.
I was so glad he understood, and I felt really relieved. I didn't want to hide anymore but at the same time I didn't want to creep my family out.
As if reading my mind, Riker said
"Do you want me to talk about it with the others?" I nodded.
I suddenly felt tired, so I told him goodnight and went in my room.
I was laying in my bed not really wanting to sleep. I thought about how much my life had changed in the past few days, when I heard the front door open then close. The others were home. I heard Riker telling them they needed to talk, but after that I couldn't really hear much. After that I heard some noise, like someone crying.