Adopted by R5 - My story

Chapter 10- Confession

Yep, it was Riker crying. I never thought he would be so emotional, and it broke my heart knowing it was all my fault.
Now he was talking, gradually raising his voice. I heard Ross saying something, but I didn't understand what he said. Then Riker replied slightly angrily
"I am not angry with her, Ross, why would I be? I am angry because she doesn't deserve to go through all this, she's a beautiful person and seeing her upset makes my heart break. I love her like a daughter and I want to help her." Then he stayed silent. After a while he added
"I want to be a better dad than hers, he's a fucking monster. I want all the best for her."
His speech warmed my heart... someone finally loved me. And I loved my family.

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That night I had the usual nightmare about my dad, but I wasn't expecting it, I thought that now that I was at the Lynches' I would stop having nightmares. Apparently I was wrong.
Even though it was the same nightmare as always, every time I was terrified. I sat in my bed crying, when my bedroom's door opened.
I jumped out of my skin because I wasn't expecting it, and I saw Ross quietly coming in.
He sat on my bed and whispered
"I heard you crying, is everything ok?" Man, this house has really thin walls!
"Uhm yes, I just had a nightmare.. it's stupid, really"
"Do you wanna tell me about it?". I shook my head.
"Okay..." He said smiling a bit sadly.
"Ross, can you stay here with me? I don't want that to happen again" as soon as I asked it, I felt really childisch and blushed. Thank God it was dark and he didn't notice.
He whispered an "of course" and slipped under the blanket with me.
It made me remember all the times Connor used to do that, too, when I was little and had nightmares.
Ross had his eyes closed but giggled silently
"I feel you staring at me"
I didn't even realised I was looking at him
"Oh, it's just that you remind me of my brother" I whispered smiling.
He pulled me into a hug and fell asleep. I finally had someone to cuddle. No more lonely nights like there used to be at the orphanage. The problem is that when you feel lonely, you start thinking. And thinking was my biggest problem, because it caused me to remember all the people I missed and all the people who hurt me in the past. You just can't help but overthinking when you're alone, and in my case there was a lot to think about. Basically, my biggest enemy was myself.
But now I had positive things to think about: my new family, how much they loved me, how much I loved spending time with them and how I was getting to trust them.
That night I fell asleep listening to my brother's heartbeat, just like I used to do in the past.