𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃

it's not your fault

ellie's pov:

exactly one more month and i'm gone.

i'm surprised i was even able to stay this long if i'm honest.

half of a year is a long time, let alone for someone who desires something as extreme as death.

one more month, four weeks, it's basically the same thing.

dina's asleep at her house right now, i left in the middle of the night to go home.

my parents were out per usual, dina's dad dropped off a little graduation gift for me that i'm yet to open.

the only thing on my mind is how dina's family are going to react when they wake up and i'm gone.

will they even care?

maybe they're just acting like they enjoy being around me so they don't embarrass dina.

i grabbed my notebook, i've been writing more than usual lately.

not for me, but for dina. i want her to have a little piece of me for when i can't physically be there.

clicking my pen i brought it to the paper, scribbling a bit to make sure i still had ink.

may 7, 2034

you did it, my love. you graduated! words cannot explain how proud i am of you.

i can't wait to see you move off to college like you've always dreamed of. although you can't see me, i promise i'll be there with you every step of the way.

one more month until i'm gone.
i hate hiding this from you but it's for the best.
but remember; it's not your fault.

i love you so so much :)

— el.

i ripped the page out, folding it into a box and sliding it under my bed along with the tons of other notes i have under there.

i'm gonna miss her so much, i really hope she's able to cope on her own.

rolling over i felt my phone vibrate from under me, picking it up i saw who it was.

| didi <3
hi my angel
where'd you go ?

| me
home

| didi <3
i'm coming over

i hearted her message before laying down, sighing dramatically.

i swear she teleports, after about a minute and a half she was already at my house.

"hi angel," she said opening my bedroom door. "hey." was all i said.

"have you eaten?" she asks and i nod. "also about last ni-" i cut her off, "why are we still talking about this?"

"i'm confused, that's all."

i chuckled to myself before turning to look out the window. "not sure why."

i heard her sigh as she laid down, wrapping her arms around me. "remember what you promised."

"why do you still remember that?" i laugh, and she shrugs. "i remember everything."

"yeah, whatever."