𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃

one more month

ellie's pov:

it's the day of graduation, of course my parents weren't home but they made sure to leave me a note.

won't be home until late, food is in the fridge
if you want it.

— congrats, mom.

i smiled as i folded the note and stuffed it in the trash, grabbing my stuff.

dina was asleep on the couch for some reason, i don't even remember inviting her over but it's alright. she's graduating today too.

if anything i'm surprised i even made it this far, i thought i'd never see the day of graduation.

let alone the end of freshman year.

i'm proud of myself i guess, i don't normally say stuff like that but it's worth it to somewhat lighten the mood.

it's now 2pm, graduation starts at four and dina wants to do my hair and makeup before we leave.

of course i had to say yes, i mean hell i only have a month left with her anyway.

i want to make this day memorable for her.

she finally woke up, rubbing her eyes as she did. "you're awake?" i say, smiling as she stood up.

"i guess so, you ready?"

she grabbed her makeup bag followed by a couple hairbrushes which she stole from me, guiding me to the bathroom as if i didn't know my way around my own house.

i sat on a stool in front of the mirror while she pulled my hair back, brushing it into a half up half down bun like i always do.

except she somehow always finds a way to make it look better than when i do it.

"wait, here." she said reaching into her pocket and pulling out an orange butterfly clip.

"you remembered?" i smiled as she clipped it to the side of my head. "how could i not? you never shut up about these stupid things."

"yeah yeah, whatever." i chuckled.

she finished with some hairspray before grabbing my cap and gown, letting me get dressed.

i shut the door, throwing everything on. do i really wanna do this?

my anxiety is through the roof right now, the thought of being in the same room as every single person in my school repulses me.

i hate every single one of them.

"could you hurry up?" dina knocks on the door making me jump. "i'm coming."

i slowly open the door, her jaw dropping as she looked at me. "look at you," she dragged out, and i couldn't help but smile.

this is gonna hurt her so bad, as much as i want to tell her i know i can't.

after all we've been through it can't be for nothing, right? i don't know what to think.

maybe dina's enough of a reason to stay, maybe not. in the end i know she'll leave if i stay anyway.