𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃

fix her

ellie's pov:

the music blasting from my speakers practically deafened me as i kicked my feet up, dina sat beside me.

no words were said between us as we laid in complete silence, the song changed to the one we listened to on a day i'll never forget.

yellow, by coldplay.

"i want this song played at my funeral," i turn over, smiling softly at dina as she raised a brow. "your funeral?"

"yeah, i just think it's pretty that's all."

she chuckled, "you're not having a funeral, ever. you're not allowed to die."

"it's gonna happen some day, everybody dies at some point." i shake my head. "okay, but you're not dying anytime soon. not on my watch."

all i did was scoff turning my head back to the tv as i started at the little dot which showed where exactly we were in the song.

my favorite part was coming up; the bridge.

'it's true, look how they shine for you.'

i held back a smile as dina rubbed my back, humming softly as i could feel myself getting sleepier.

"hey didi?" i turn, my head now resting on her shoulder. "i don't want to get into too much because i don't want to scare you but,"

"but?"

"i just don't plan on being around that long, y'know? i promise i won't do anything stupid i jus-"

she interrupts me, "you're not going anywhere."

"i know i mean, i-i don't know." i sigh, completely disregarding what i was planning to say. "i'm saying too much."

"no, i wanna hear it." she says pulling me up off her shoulder, looking into my eyes. "tell me what you were gonna say."

all i did was shake my head, keeping my eyes away from hers.

"just forget it."

dina's pov:

i sat and stared as ellie went about, adjusting some things on her wall.

i still can't stop thinking about what she was saying earlier, i'm sure she means nothing by it but she really worries me.

my mom and dad are worried too, not for her but for me. they say i dedicate too much of my time to her only for nothing in return.

of course i don't believe them when they say that.

all i want is to fix her, that's all. i can tell she's traumatized and i want to help her overcome it. i can fix her, i know i can.

it just takes time.

—

i'm now home, ellie came with me.

i had to beg her to come like usual, after an hour of trying to convince her she finally gave in.

she's half asleep in my lap, my hands running through her hair as her breathing slows. "i love you, angel." i whisper, and i feel her smile against my leg.

"love you too." she replies quietly.

shes been acting so weird lately, like she wants to tell me something but doesn't know how to put it.

and as much as i want to ask her i know it's not worth it, it's practically impossible to get anything out of that girl.

she's leaving tomorrow, we already had an agreement that if she stays tonight i'll let her leave the next morning.

of course i don't want her to go, i enjoy her presence but it's what she wants.

i heard talia walk in, smiling as she saw ellie. "you convinced her?" she chuckles, and i nod scratching her head.

"surprising." she whispers before slowly shutting the door behind her.

i continue to scratch the top of ellie's head as i browse through the newest releases on netflix, choosing a random one just for noise.

"i love you," i whisper as i kiss her forehead, feeling her body tense against me. "so much."

i looked up at the clock, it reading 9:35pm. i didn't realize it was so late. turning the volume down a couple notches i laid back, ellie cozying up into my neck.

holding her a bit tighter i let out a yawn, kissing her a couple times before falling asleep myself.

4 days.