Me, Myself, and Jikook (Jikook Oneshots)

New Year, New Me

Jungkook watched Jimin from across the room as he decorated their apartment for the annual New Year's party they held.  They had been best friends for years and had been roommates almost just as long.  Jungkook knew Jimin was gay and had watched in growing irritation as Jimin had dated a handful of guys over the nearly seven years he'd known him.  

At first, he couldn't figure out why Jimin dating guys had bothered him.  He'd thought maybe he was homophobic, but that couldn't have been the case because their friends Yoongi and Taehyung were gay and in a relationship and that never bothered him.  At the third year of their friendship, he'd even gathered up enough courage to ask Yoongi why he thought it was bothering him so badly.  Yoongi had simply said, "Maybe you're in love with him or something."

The idea that he was in love with Jimin bothered him even more.  He was straight.  He thought he was straight.  Finally, after being best friends with Jimin for four years, Jungkook admitted to himself that he wasn't as straight as he thought and that he was, indeed, in love with Jimin.  However, Jimin didn't know this because Jungkook hadn't gained the courage to tell him.  So Jimin kept dating and kept getting his heart broken only to fall into Jungkook's arms each time, sobbing over whatever idiot was foolish enough to not keep Park Jimin.

All their friends that knew of Jungkook's love had encouraged him for years to make his move.  But Jungkook was terrified.  What if Jimin didn't like him back?  What if he ruined a seven year friendship?  What if they did date?  Jungkook had never been with a man before.  He wasn't sure where to even start with anything.  What if they dated and then broke up?  What if Jungkook didn't measure up to the others Jimin had dated and he was disappointed with dating him?

The 'what-ifs" had kept Jungkook frozen in fear for three years, much to the annoyance of the members of their friend group who knew about his secret.  Yoongi and his best friend, Hoseok, had urged him the most to just tell Jimin how he felt.  The only one who didn't know how he felt about Jimin was Taehyung, Jimin's self proclaimed soulmate.  Jungkook may be Jimin's best friend, but Taehyung was almost like his actual brother.  Sometimes, though he hated to admit it, he would become very jealous of the closeness that Taehyung had with Jimin and how open he could be with his touches and affection since he was out as a gay man.

Jungkook was determined that all that would change tonight, though.  'New year, New me' was the mantra he'd repeated to himself over and over and over again for the past month since he'd decided that he'd let it go on long enough.  Now, whether Jimin brought someone tonight or not, whether it would ruin their friendship or not, Jungkook was finally going to make his move.

He watched as Jimin's sweet smile fell and his head dropped as tears welled in his eyes.  Taehyung moved to hug him and rub his back with his broad palms.  Jungkook felt that familiar pang of jealousy and tried to ignore how desperately he wanted to tear Taehyung from Jimin and take his place.

"The whole world's going to know how you feel before Jimin if you keep looking at him like that.  And don't be mad at my boyfriend just because he gets to do what you can't since you're too much of a chicken to tell your best friend you're in love with him," Yoongi stated bluntly as he plopped down on the couch next to Jungkook.

"I'm telling him tonight.  No matter what, I'm telling him tonight," Jungkook insisted.

"Well now's your chance, lover boy," Hoseok chimed in, falling into the couch on the other side of Jungkook.  "Follow them.  Go get your man."

"I wanted to kiss him at midnight, though.  That was my plan," Jungkook's face scrunched up.

"I wouldn't wait.  Taehyung invited some dude to meet Jimin tonight.  If you wait too long, Jimin might wind up taken...again," Yoongi warned.