Matt Sturniolo imagines.

sunshine baby :)

it helps if you listen to "sunshine baby - the Japanese house" :)))

It's the last summer before the boys move to LA for a couple of months, emotions are running high and i feel the need to make these 6 weeks count. We have 42 days to spend together and im trying to do as much as i can with matt.

This morning i wake up to sunshine and i ask matt if he wants to have a beach day, he agrees pretty much instantly and i make some toast and go back upstairs to put on my bathing suit and shorts. I put my hair up in french braids and grab my polaroid, we have a policy - one polaroid a day. Even if i have to run over at 10 pm just to take a quick picture thats whats going to happen.

He's at my door 10 minutes later with his phone and beach towel in hand, we take my car and i drive us to the coast and we join hands while walking down. Once we hit the sand we lay down towels and set off running to the water. i splash him and he splashes me back. we float and kiss in the water i wrap my legs around him and he wraps his arm around my waist and then i kiss him while holding onto his face.

We lay on our towels and then i pick up my book and matt lays his hat on his face and he's snoring soon after. After an hour i'm bored and i wake matt up. his hair is messed up and my freckles are already showing through. he grabs the polaroid and snaps a photo of us together.

"ugh matt i wasnt ready ill look awful" i roll my eyes and he then copies me. " you look perfect, you always do." he kisses my nose and lifts me up. " i want a sandwich." he announces and drives my car to a sandwich place. i take soo many photos on my phone of the sea and matt and the sky even a pigeon that was holding some fried chicken in its beak, i just want to hold onto everything.

by the time 2pm hits the sun is at its strongest and me and matt are baking on our towels, my skin is already turning pink and his is already pink. i sit up and decide its ice cream time.

He smiles and grabs onto my hand leading me down the coast demanding he knows the best ice cream place. he gets a vanilla cone and i get strawberry and he mocks me for getting the worst flavour, thats when i pout. and the camera comes out. he sets a timer for 20 seconds and runs to put it against the railing.

" matthew dont drop that camera in the water i swear to god." he giggles and sets the timer again. " i wont baby. look!" he shouts and runs back to me. For the first picture he kisses my cheek and i smile into his kiss.

The next one he has his arms around my waist and then for the finale he dips me and kisses me. When he goes to get the camera i see an old couple walking past smiling at us. " Jeremy aren't they so cute!" she says to him. he nods in return. Thats when i get this sinking feeling in my stomach. i love matt. and he's leaving and what can i do?

He grabs my hand and leads me to the car. i drive us to matts house and of course he invites me in, this is the first time i decline. " im so tired, might take a nap baby." i laugh. " nap in my bed, ill take one with you." he says, walking back to my window. " i need to shower too, i can face-time you later." i offer, his smile drops but he nods. " okay baby, see you later." he says and kisses my forehead. I back out of his driveway and park up in my own.

i manage to make it to the shower before the tears start to stream. I shampoo my hair and cry about how much I'll miss matt. The skin around my eyes are red by the time i sit down for dinner. Im an only child so all the attention is on me all the time so my parents obsess over my every emotion.

" have you been crying honey?" my mom asks. i nod weakly and cry at the table again. " why baby?" my dad asks. " in going to miss matt so much and i love him." i say and try to put some
rice into my mouth but i cant im crying too hard.

" you guys will make it work, im sure of it honey! you can call and FaceTime all the time and you'll be going off to college and you will be having so much fun you'll forget how much you miss him then by that time he will be home. you guys can do it" my mom reassures me and brings me a glass of water that i sip.

" okay mom." i say and eat my dinner. After dinner i get into bed under the covers and turn on the office on low volume and call matt. i've put on under eye masks so they dont look horrible tomorrow. He picks up instantly and i lay the phone on the pillow next to my head.

" can we FaceTime so i can see your face?" he asks, i think about my red eyes and decline. " no i look horrid right now." i laugh and he goes silent. " matt are you there?" i say. " yes baby. but you need to tell me whats wrong" he demands.

" nothing is wrong." i say.

" nope i know you. Please tell me then i can fix whatever it is" he says all sweet. " You can fix it." i cry out and he goes silent again.

" i love you and your going away and ill miss you so much. But i cant tell you because i want you to have a great time in LA and i know you want that to be a forever thing and im in college and i dont want to be in my dorm crying over how much i miss you but matt im in love with you!" i cry and once im done i realised its been 5 minutes and i've just been sobbing.

" matt?" i ask.

" yes baby." he says.

" what are you doing?" i ask.

" im coming over you need reassurance." he says and i cry more. He hangs up and i hear the front door open and then my bedroom door open. He picks me up from under my covers and sits me on his lap, my head in the nook of
his neck, he strokes my hair and kisses my neck whilst i sob.

" it will all be okay. Im too in love for it not to be." he whispers in my ear and i look at him and he wipes the tears from my eyes. He holds my face gently and then kisses my lips just as gentle.

moving day!

My car is packed in the driveway, my parents in the front seats. I saw matt this morning and he was finishing off some last minute packing details. He should be leaving soon. " I'll be 10 minutes i need to see matt." i smile at my mom who's already stressing. " Dont be mad at me when you get the worst bed." im running down the street thinking id happily take the shitty bed to kiss matt again. he's just backing the car out the driveway when i turn up.

They all get out and matt kisses me so much i feel like theres no air in my lungs. Chris hugs me and nick does the same. " i love you guys." i say. " you'll do great at College." Nick and Chris shout to me. Matt lingers and dosent kiss me but just presses his forehead to mine, his hair tickles me but i stay silent and enjoy it.

" face-time me when you get to your house." i say when im walking down the street. Matt nods and blows a kiss and i pretend to catch it.

we will be okay. i really believe that.

a/n- sorry i've been m-i-a things havent been the best buttttt im getting better and wanted to finish this off because i've missed writing but i dont think ill do it as much! BUT LMK IF YOU WANT A PT2 :)

i love you guys.