Y/n's pov:
Its hard having older friends. You miss out on so much, they graduate and have milestones before you. All you can do is sit back and watch them move on. And eventually leave.
Matt, nick and Chris are all older than me, im 17 and there 18. Moving on to college and moving away for good.
Matts my boyfriend but its still hard because i know he will have school and i will too. Were going to be away for so long, but i cant think about it to much because it makes my chest hurt and i get all panicky and anxious because everyones growing up and im stuck here alone.
" whats going on in hour head?" Matt asks me, were both laying on the hammock in my bag garden. I made ice teas and its so sunny. Its august and one month away until they leave for college. And go.
" nothing." I reply. Im reading and matts scrolling on his phone. " oh come on, i know somethings bothering you." He pushes and prods my stomach trying to push the information out of me.
" ill miss you." I say, tears prod my eyes and my chest tightens. " ill miss you too but ill see you weekends and holidays, im only 2 hours away." He reassures me and i smile. I go back to reading until the sun goes in and its time for matt to leave.
A couple weeks later:
" wanna come with us to buy stuff for dorms?" Matt asks me on face time. He's writing a list of still hell need and im starting work for my senior year. " sure, ill be at yours in 20." I say and he nods. I grab my bag and then walk over.
Once i get there we get in the car and Mary lou is coming, she wants to make sure the boys get everything they need. " hey honey." She says and i hug her. I pull back and see tears threaten her eyes and i smile at her to reassure her its okay.
We buy bedding, towels, toiletries and school supplies. Some decor and new clothes.
Leaving day:
" hey, my mom asked if you want to drive over with us? It'll be good." Matt asks, im over at his house that morning while he packs the rest of his stuff to go in the half packed car. I nod and smile. " sure." I say. We haul everything to the mini van and i sit next to matt, in the very back seats.
The boys have the biggest smiles on their faves as we pull up to the school campus. There are loads of kids giving teary goodbyes and parents hauling heavy boxes in.
" okay, everyone grab bags." Jimmy says and we only need two trips. The boys have single rooms but there all one the same floor, close together.
"3a is matt, 3b is nick and 3c is chris." Jimmy says and help matt unpack. I hang his clothes up and he makes his bed. He puts some shirts and pants in drawers and i unpack his school supplies.
" matt, are you ready?" I ask him. He turns to look at me. " for school, yeah. I have everything" he says. " no i mean to leave?" I ask. He shakes his head and pulls me closer to him. " ill miss you all but i guess its something id eventually have to do." He says.
I burst out crying and he pulls me close. I hear the door open but seconds later its closed. Matt hugs me close and reassures me.
" okay i think everyones packed." Jimmy says a hour later. All three boys are unpacked and Chris asks for one last meal together. I smile and wrap my arm around matts waist.
After dinner were in the car park of the college campus. Im saying good bye to matt and his brothers. I hug matt an extra minute and their parents get in the car and nick and Chris head up to their rooms.
" you'll be okay. I know you will." He says. " im not sure i can do it." I say. He shakes his head and kisses me. " you have your best year ahed of you, make it count. Ill always be here. Its always going to be me and you. Call me whenever." He says and i cry and hug him once more before getting in the car.
That night in bed i think about what matt said. This is my year, finishing school and ill be there with him. I can call him whenever. Its me and him forever.
A/n: I CRIED WHILE WRITING THIS LOL.
