𝐖𝐎𝐒𝐎 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐓.𝟐

You'll always have me. (Lucy Quinn)

Warning: SH (self harm, no specifics but referencing), if this topic isn't for you i suggest you skip it please.

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You had been out with an injury for a couple of weeks, you were fine with it at first until it came to international break. You weren't allowed to play, your teammates at first did a good job at keeping you up to date with everything until they didn't. 

You didn't blame them, you weren't expecting them to drop everything to attend you but you couldn't help and feel left out. It almost felt like everything stopped for you but kept going for everyone else. You loved representing your country, the fact that you weren't going to be able to play made everything ten times worse.

Those 'feelings' started to come back again, you knew you shouldn't be thinking that way. You felt so alone and invisible half of the time, there was only one person you could trust enough to tell. But part of you didn't even want to bother her, you didn't want to feel like a burden or a problem to someone.

Lucy must've been busy enough already with training, you knew she would be upset if she found out you didn't call her for that reason. She was your girlfriend after all, she didn't mind doing this for you. Lucy knew about it, about your past relapses, about everything. She always told you she'd be here for you through anything you were going through, that's one of the reason you loved her. 

You knew she meant it.

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You had texted lucy instead of calling her, you were in your apartment back home while she had been at training. Lucy was staying with you so regardless you were gonna see her when she came home but you decided to text her anyway. 

You were sitting in your living room watching tv trying to distract yourself with anything you could find or think of. You hated feeling so alone, you had tried going to see the girls practice but it just reminded you of what you couldn't do. Most people say the most important thing to do when you're out injured is to stay close with those loved ones around you. To you that was quite hard since you felt like they were going to forget about you but if you stayed close around them, they just kept doing what you loved.

You knew they weren't rubbing it in your face but you felt stuck, the only thing you felt like doing was staying away from everyone. That was taking a toll on your mental health though. 

You got brought back to reality when you heard the doorknob turning and the door opened, lucy walked in looking straight at you. She closed the door and walked over to you, she placed the training bag down and she had been carrying another plastic bag in her other hand.

"Hey, sorry i'm late- i had to stop to get your favorite things...i got your text." lucy said as she sat right besides you. "You didn't have to do all of that..i just wanted you to come home.." you said looking at the bag full of your favorite snacks, including ice cream.

"I don't mind, you know i don't." lucy smiled at you. You sent her half a smile. "We can do whatever you want...watch something while we eat all of this...or just sit in silence and eat...or we can talk." lucy said.

You looked at the bag and she brought it onto the couch, throwing everything out for you to see. "We don't have to talk if you don't want to." lucy reassured you. "We can talk.." you looked up at her. Lucy nodded and looked down picking up a chocolate bar. "You want to tell me why you've been feeling the way you have?" lucy asked you.

You grabbed one of the candies and hesitantly opened it. "I guess i've been feeling...alone? Ever since i injured my knee...i've felt like everyone was supportive and stuff but- then after some time i feel like it took a toll on me..when i would go and see them practice, it reminded me of what i couldn't do anymore." you said looking down at the candy in your hand.

"You will be able to do it again. Once you've recovered darling." lucy reassured you. "I know but- i don't want to bother anyone- or even you..." you said looking up at lucy. "Don't say that. You know i'm here for you even if you start feeling that kind of way again...you'll always have me." lucy placed her hand on your thigh. 

"I know.." you whispered.

"I know you might be feeling alone, but the girls and I are here for you whether you want to believe it or not.." she told you. "I don't want you to resort to...doing that anymore...ever again. I'm here for you, i mean that." she said.

"Thank you...that- that means a lot...more than you know." you told lucy. Lucy smiled at you and nodded. "Now...are you going to eat that ice cream or.." lucy tilted her head. "We can share...i'll go get the spoons." you said standing up and heading to the kitchen.

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Requested by: mazzanatorr