A Wife With No Right

AWWNR 26

Ivy

It's been what? A week?

Isang linggo na mahigit pero ganon padin ang sistema sa bahay. Alliston is still making everything hard for me. She doesn't want to eat and refuses all of the affections that I am giving her.

Nagagalit ako.

It makes me mad and yet I can't make something that will make her hate me more. I know na nasasaktan ko na naman siya, but how about my feelings? May pakiramdam din ako.

I am hurt too. Emotionally!

My heart is spitting blood already and it damned hurts that I want to pull out my heart outside my ribcage. I even heard my heart breaking and it felt like I am losing the tiny piece of my life that is left within me.

I just want my wife back. Yun lang naman ang hiling ko and yet no one can even make it happen.

"Whats the matter, ate?"

Napaiwas ako ng tingin ng madinig ko ang kapatid ko. Nasa veranda kami ng condo unit dahil binisita ko din ang anak ko.

I sighed. "My wife!"

My heart squealed at the thought of my woman. Damn I'm really going insane!

"Why don't you bring the kid home?"

Mabilis akong napatingin sa kanya. "Are you crazy?"

Nagkibit balikat lang ito. "That's the only way para mapalambot mo ang asawa mo!"

Mahina akong natawa bago nag-iwas ng tingin. "So that she could leave me again? No!"

I know na kapag binalik ko ang anak namin ay tatakasan niya lang ulit ako. Hindi ko na kakayanin kapag naulit pa yung limang taon kong pagdurusa.

Baka matuluyan na talaga akong mabaliw!

"Then don't expect something from your wife too!" Mahina niyang saad at sumimsim pa ng wine sa kupitang hawak.

I know that. I just can't do it because of the circumstances. I'm not expecting na mapapatawad pa ako ni Alliston but I'm hoping for her consideration.

Our kid is my wife's happiness. I also want to bring Maddie home pero natatakot ako. I can't just decide because, one wrong move and all of this hardship will be gone.

"I don't know what to do!"

Malalim pa akong huminga na parang doon maiibsan ang bigat na nararamdaman ko. Nafru-frustrate nako sa kakaisip kung paano mababalik ang asawa ko sa dati.

The Alliston that loves me so much.

She was scared to be left out before and she was so excited for me to go home and ask me how my day went. The passionate kisses and warm hugs whenever she sees me. The tasty meals and dinners that she's preparing everytime.

I miss all of that!

"Stop crying!" My sister said.

Nahintakutan ako. Nagugulat na kinapa ko ang pisngi at doon ko nalamang tumutulo na nga ang luha sa mga mata ko. Napaiwas ako ng tingin at mabilis iyong pinunasan.

"Ate, itigil mo na kaya ang paghabol sa asawa mo? Mag usap kayo ng tungkol sa bata na lang." Bakas ang awa sa tono ng boses niya ng sabihin iyon.

Tila sumakit ang ulo ko and there is something squeeze my heart at the thought that I would let go of my wife.

Hindi ko kaya!

"I can't."

Magkamatayan na pero hindi ko pakakawalan ang asawa ko. She's mine and no one else!