His Uncommitted Sin

Cold Winters

Winter's POV:

" It's hurting Ean, please let go of me." I pleaded with him and he stood calm in a corner. I couldn't fathom his current mood. Should I approach him? 

I looked at my wrist where the metal was cutting right through my skin. 

" Ean, listen to me," I cried and he stood away from me like a boulder. It's past midnight and I'm scared of the darkness that has enveloped this room. 

" I... I... I'm sorry E..ean. I promise I won't share anything with Kanvi or Kathie." I said hardly breathing. I'm a mess and one of my hands is cuffed to bed.

There was no word from his side and I gave up. He held me like a prisoner in his room. The cold metal and the cold room are giving me chills and the clothes on my body barely help me from shivering. 

I gave up. I gave up everything that was related to me and Ean. He is a psycho. 

" I thought you loved me," I mumbled looking at my lap, my eyes filled with tears. My words were for no one to hear, but he did. " I do, I love you.." He whispered finally turning back, drinking the darkness surrounding me. 

I spoke nothing. Nothing sort that could anger him. I see his silhouette walking towards me and the bed dipped beside me. I see his hand coming forward to cup me and I averted my face. 

" Why do you love hurting me Ean?" I asked with almost no energy, my eyes begging to grant them so sleep while the cold metal and the difficult position were preventing me from sleeping. 

" I'm not. I hope you understand that soon love," He whispered hiding his face in my crook. I used to feel loved when he used to do that, but now, I feel something crawling on my body, I feel disgusted.

" Stay away from me Ean. I feel it so disgusting." I spat and he held my hair in a tight grip. I hissed in pain and cupped his fist looking right into his eyes begging him to leave. 

" Weren't you the one who was under me moaning like a whore all night when I fucked you raw?" He asked gripping my jaw and breathing right on my face. I was scared and tears made their way out of my eyes. 

" You called me a whore, didn't you?" I breathed and his posture looked tense as if he realised what he just uttered. It's paining in my heart like someone has got the biggest hammer and broke my heart into a million pieces. 

His breaths came out tensed and quick and I chuckled painfully. I dropped my hand from his and his grip loosened on my hair. 

" Love, I didn't mean it. Winter, understand me, love, I seriously didn't mean it." He whispered trying to prove his point but the damage was already done. 

" What do you want me to do when you fuck me raw? You are mistaken Mr. Kenworth if you think that those are the moans of pleasure, those are the moans of fury, those are the moans of pain and those are the moans of helplessness." I said and wiped the tear that just escaped.

" You never took my consent before you had sex with me. It's always your wish when to have sex. Did you even realise that I was in my periods when we had sex?" I screamed and pushed his hand away. I pulled my legs together and looked at his silhouette. 

" This is not the Ean I loved. He was a sweet man who put my wishes before his, he used to make sure that I was always comfortable when we got intimate. But what about the Ean now?" I questioned him and he held my hand. " I freaking asked you not to touch me," I screamed pushing him away.

"  I feel scared when even I receive your call or your text. I feel violated when you touch me. You force me Ean. You never think whether I'm comfortable or not, you fuck me so raw, like a monster again and again, again and again until I pass out. I feel so much pain inside me that it's so hard for me to walk the next day. Instead of some sweet nothings, do you know what you whisper? You whisper in my ear how you lost your deals, how your old grandfather threatened you to get married. I never felt loved Ean, your every thrust into me gives me nightmares and I'm unsure how I'm even surviving." I cried and he inched forward to hug me. I put my hand against his chest and nodded no.