i'm trying so hard
but i don't know how to break the cycle
i push forward and i set goals
and i cast out all the
rocks in my pockets
and still
still i end up here
back to the beginning
back to trying to fit myself
between the floorboards
back to hoping the earth will
swallow me up
and consume me
back to wishing
i had never existed at all
and i don't know what to do
i'm trying so hard
but i always end up here
i can't break the cycle
i don't know how
i don't know how
—i don't know how to get better
YOU ARE READING
thorns and other maladies
Poetryanother collection of poems. *TW: mentions of sexual assault, drug use, self harm and other sensitive topics*
