- You're like my favourite cake.. I love you, but I can't always have you.
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"Stop torturing yourself, Colet. Why can't you just let her go?!" Halata sa boses ni Jhoana na nauubusan na siya sa akin ng pasensya.
I can't blame her. I'm stubborn and fucked up. I want love but I choose the mess.
"Just one phone call, Jho. Give me my phone back." I plead as I tried to snatch my phone from her hand. I may look very desperate right now pero wala akong magawa, mahal ko eh.
Nagulat ako ng bigla akong sampalin ni Jhoana. Parang nagising ang diwa ko kaya mas lalong bumigat ang pakiramdam ko.
"Tignan mo nga sarili mo sa salamin, Colet! Maloi ruined you! She hurts you pero patuloy ka parin naghahabol sa kaniya!" Galit na sabi ni Jhoana.
Narinig kong bumukas ang pintuan ng bahay ko and nakita ko si Stacey at Mikha na pumasok. Hindi na napigilan ng mata ko ang pag-iyak.
"Wake up, Colet! Stop fighting a battle na alam mong hindi ka mananalo."
"S..she loves me, Jho. I know it." My voice cracks as I uttered those words.
"She only loves your company. She loves the attention na binibigay mo sa kaniya pero hindi ka niya mahal bilang ikaw."
Nakayuko lang ako habang hinahayaang tumulo ang mga luha ko. My heart is numb. My body aches like I've been in a combat and I'm completely bruised. I felt like I've been struck by lightning because of the truthful words that came out of Jhoana's lips.
"Maloi is here." Stacey said reluctantly that made my head lift. Nakita kong tumingin si Jhoana kay Stacey.
"Tell her na hindi siya pwede pumasok." Jhoana firmly stated.
"Let her in." Jhoana jolt her attention towards aggressively and disappointedly.
"Are you for real right now?!" She asked frustratingly.
"This will be the last time, Jho. I promise." She stared at me as I wiped my tears.
"Fine." Pinatong ni Jhoana 'yung phone ko sa mesa then lumabas ng bahay. Sinundan naman siya ni Mikha and Stacey.
Kita kong pumasok si Maloi and my heart skipped a beat just by watching her.
How can I love someone so deep na kahit naglalakad lang siya ay bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko?
"Hey," she called then hugged my stiff body. I buried my face on her shoulder and wrapped my arms around her body.
"You okay?" She asked. My lips are trembling trying to suppress myself from crying.
She gradually remove herself from me, caress my cheeks while giving me a tender gaze.
"I love you, Loi." She looks surprised with my confession pero mabilis din iyon napalitan ng ngiti.
"I love you too, my Colet."
"It's okay. You don't have to say it just because I told you na mahal kita."
Her happy smile turned to a confusion. "Huh? What do you mean?"
"I want to thank you for making me feel special, Maloi. But I think, it's time for me to wake up in this dream. Thank you for making me the happiest sa loob ng tatlong buwan."
"I don't get it. Are you breaking up with me?" She asked.
"No.." I said almost a whisper. "Hindi naman naging tayo kaya walang break up. You're not mine to begin with."
