Kailan mo masasabi na pagod ka na magmahal?
Kailan mo masasabi na hindi mo na kayang magsakripisyo pa?
Kailan mo masasabi na suko ka na?
Ako kasi, hindi ko alam.
Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko sasabihin yung salitang time out muna. Pahinga muna.
I convinced myself na hangga't kaya ko, hangga't hindi pa bumibigay yung katawan ko, itutuloy ko lang.
Have you ever love someone na kahit lagi kang nasasaktan at sinasaktan, minamahal mo parin?
Because me? I did---I still do.
"They're waiting for us." Sheena said. I turn around and saw her wearing a simple purple dress that goes above her knees. I nod my head and walked towards her.
I reached for her hand but she shoved it. Hindi ko kaagad nabawi yung kamay ko at naiwan itong nasa ere. "I don't like you touching me." She spat and naglakad pauna sakin.
I swallowed an invisible lump in my throat. I closed my hand and sumunod sa kanya. Sinalubong kami ng family namin with warm welcome.
I showed a fake smile and interact with them. "You both look stunning." Sheena's mom stated. Yumakap ako and bumeso. Ganun din sa papa ni Sheena and sa kuya niya.
"Thank you po." Sabi ko. We have family dinner for our upcoming wedding. Sheena and I are bound to be each other's bride.
I should be happy, I really should. But I can't. She doesn't love me the way I love her.
"So kamusta naman kayo sa bahay niyo? Nagustuhan niyo ba yung gift namin?" Tanong ng dad ni Sheena.
I smiled at him and said, "it's beautiful po. Thank you." The house is beautiful but not the situation of the people who lives there.
"Hindi tayo magtatabi. I don't care if sa sahig ka or sa sala or kahit sa labas ka matulog. Don't you dare disturb me or even attempt to have a conversation with me." Sheena said then walk out. She went upstairs going to the bedroom.
"Tahimik mo Sheena. Something wrong hon?" Her mom asked. She looked at everyone and scoffed.
"Everything about this is wrong." I felt like someone stabbed me in the heart. She made sure na clear sa lahat na ayaw niya sa nangyayari.
"Sheena, we've talked about this." Her kuya said.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever. Can I leave na? I don't like it here." Hindi na hinintay ni Sheena na yung sagot nila and tuluyan na siyang umalis.
Kahit na alam kong wala akong magagawa, kahit na alam kong hindi rin siya makikinig, I decided to follow her. I apologise to our family and left.
Tumakbo ako and hinabol si Sheena. Nandito kami sa bahay ng parents ko kaya hindi ako naligaw papuntang parking lot. I'm pretty sure sa parking lot yung punta niya.
Hindi ako nagkamali. I saw her papunta sa car niya. Hiwalay din kaming pumunta dito.
"Sheena wait!" Tawag ko pero tuloy-tuloy lang siya sa paglalakad. Binilisan ko pa sa pagtakbo para abutan siya. I get ahold of her wrist and I was able to stop her from walking.
Mabilis niya namang inalis yung hawak ko sa kanya na para bang may nakakahawa akong sakit. "I said stop touching me! Are you stupid?!" She lashed out.
Sanay na ako.. pero masakit parin.
"Look, I know you don't want any of this but please.. show some respect lalo na sa harap ng pamilya mo." Malumay kong sabi.
"I'll give them respect kapag binigay din nila yung respect na gusto ko. And pwede ba, wag kang feeling close. Ganun ka ba kadesperada sakin at pati pamilya ko pinilit mo para pakasalan ako?"
