Forever and Always

Chapter 34 (Friday)

PLEASE READ AUTHOR'S NOTE AT THE END! IT'S IMPORTANT!

Tris's POV

I wake up in the middle of the night because of a stupid nightmare. I feel like I shouldn't be alive. All this pain is to much.

I look to the side and see Four. I'm glad we cleared this up. Of course I'm still self conscious and I don't know if it will ever go away but I know that he will help me feel more comfortable.

I feel Four sift to the side and I lift my head away from his chest. I lay it on the pillow which is actually pretty comfortable for a hospital pillow. But I can't sleep. Nightmares await me. I try to move my position but it just creates shooting pain up my back.

I stay awake for ten minutes until I hear Four's voice. "Tris? Why are you up?" He sits up and looks at me. I shrug. "Is it the pain? Or a nightmare?" He asks with concern lacing throughout his words. I shrug, "A l-little bit o-of b-both I g-guess." He moves a piece of hair from my face, "Do you want to talk about it?" He questions. My throat becomes dry and I shake my head no as a flashback of the dream occurs.

FLASHBACK TO NIGHTMARE

I awake from a peaceful sleep to chaos. I hear screaming downstairs. But that's not all, is, is that a- a belt!

I spring of my bed to my door. As I turn the doorknob the screaming gets louder. "No! Stop!" I scream over the noise. The door won't open, it's locked. I slam into it until it breaks and then I run downstairs.

I hear another scream, wait, that's Four. FOUR! Once I'm at the bottom of the staircase I can see it. The whole scene. Four is being beaten by my Mom and the rest of my friends are on the ground. Dead. It's clear they've been shot. The worst of it has to be that my Dad was shot but barely alive. "B-Beatrice, my princess, I'm sorry that I allowed this t-to happen. I love-" that was all. Daddy, my Dad, gone.

Another scream. I try to run to him but it's like I'm glued to the floor or that my legs are made of led. "Stop please!" I scream, desperate to save him. "Shut up you little brat!" Mom yells. "Mom stop! I'll do anything!" I yell. "There is no way out of this, Beatrice! If he dies then you die! If you die then my life goal is complete!" She yells. I hear him scream again and then a gun shot. The bullet went into his head. "NO!" Suddenly the 'led' comes off my legs and I can walk.

I run over to Four and cradle his head in my heads. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM?!" I yell. "Now it's your turn," Mom says. "What?" That's when I feel it. A bullet cuts into my arm. Then one on my legs. I scream in pain. The next one didn't hurt as bad as I thought it would, I got shot in the head.

FLASHBACK OVER

I realize that I'm trembling so bad. Four wraps his arms around me and strokes my hair. "What's wrong?" He asks gently and my face is buried in his chest. "Was it your dream?" He asks. I nod in his chest and he brings the covers up a little farther. "Do you want to tell me what happened yet?" I don't answer, instead I tighten my grip on him. I'm so weak from the beating that me tightening my grip is like a normal person hugging somebody lightly.

Four continues stroking my hair. After a minute I'm calm. "Are you ready to talk?" He asks. I nod. He gives me a small smile and tucks some hair behind my ear. I explain to him what happened, with me stuttering of course. At the end he kisses me lightly. "Everyone's fine, I'm fine, the gangs fine, you're fine, everyone's fine," he states. I nod. "I-I'm sorry," I say. "Don't be sorry. I've had dreams like that before. I understand," he says. "Now the doctor said to give you these if your in pain," he says while handing me weird looking pills. I hold them in my hand. "You chew them instead of swallowing then straight up." I nod and pop them in my mouth then chew them.