Scatter Hearts

2026

January was both stressful and not. Z4N3 and I bonded after I made a deal w him to be peaceful and join my family in exchange for the souls of my abusers. He's kind and misunderstood a bit like Xorroh was- and had been possessing Xor before they made a deal. Z is now my uncle/ aunt (Kiroca, a wolvic word for both since they're genderfluid). At first, before I got to know him and care abt him and love him, I only made the deal for safety and insurance. I made that clear, and then I truly gave him a chance. He and Xorroh had been tragically overlooked and misunderstood back in the beginning. Z was the first, then stuff I'm not revealing on the internet happened and then Xorroh and Ash and Xecnobus and the others became things. 

 He had lost his lover, but un like Xor, his was an alter within their headspace.- or thought he lost her years ago, and turned out she was a seudo ? like he is. Chiena. (She-na) I also slightly got to know her after I realized she wasn't really wanting to kill their body and Kiroca Z understood what was goin on.

Oh yea before that, Kiroca Z was telling me how he hadn't been able to sleep for like 4 years and was in constant bodily pain- regardless of if he was in front. I recently had figured out my chaos can do literally anything, and I felt again that i could do something. There was this thing i read abt in a fiction book about some herbal tea that Sally -Nightmare before christmas book- had made for this dreamland king that could never sleep and went mad until she stepped in after the conflict was over. I imagined and tried making that in the tea that we have in the meadow cottage where issac and I live- in vrc- i could add chaos and in turn the herbal tea like Sally made, and gave it to my kiroca and it worked. It put him to sleep for starters, for 2 weeks so his systems can get used to getting back on track of a sleep schedule.

Now they're getting along and seem happy from what my brother tells me. He says that Z is doing better now, and so is Chiena. 

Xor recently told me abt a consistent horrible nightmare that he had been having and I tried to help, using chaos to conjure Luna's power -mlp fim- of dream walking/ dream magic and eradicate the nightmare and give him normal dreams, normal nightmares that aren't tormenting him. I don't know if it worked but I hope it did. 

A few weeks ago, Xorroh's powers started hurting and killing him, causing the entire system to be affected. His alters- those w souls- were also dying/ feeling the effects and no one knew why it was happening, no one could host alone and barely anyone with souls could go near each other safely. I proposed a solution and we went with it. I used chaos- because while, yes both Xor and Issac have the ability to produce their own chaos because of their soul ties to me and their titles and access to my powers, something like this is not easily done with their chaos levels the way they currently are. It's different than chaos directly from me. They're both strong, but in chaos I outweigh them by a lot- meaning attempting to do what I do with my powers with very little chaos and very little control and experience can be a death sentence unless I'm there to help guide. 

I explained to him what we would be doing so mentally we both have a picture and so he can at least try to use what chaos he does possess in aid and just know what's going on. We had to take into account that somethings in him require his powers to remain stable and not break. We had to make sure- chaos does what you tell it- that the chaos would do what it's supposed to, to hold things in place like the powers would, and remove Xorroh's powers from the core of his being, and make the chaos sustain him in all ways he needs it to so he doesn't suddenly die cause of his powers or lack of. I put them in a steven universe type chaos bubble to be safe and opened a pocket dimension to keep them safe. He immediately felt better, saying the pain was gone. 

After that everyone who had been affected was able to host alone again and was feeling better too.