Issac had amnesia.. he physically didn't remember me. OR anyone else btw-
My issac is gone..
Headspace things happened ig, similar to kiroca chiena but he had tried using chaos. I'm learning I don't know much abt my dangerous abilities.. or my own .. alter- but more because I can effect spiritual and things but no one would believe that- kinda thing whatever I am.. im MADE of chaos- again so is my son.
To me it makes no sense too
- It SOUNDS scripted. It's not
-im not gonna script Wattpad there'd be no point.
Shyzero, Issac, Z, Cheina, Stixs and I are.. something else it seems like. It might not only be us idk but I know for a fact no therapist or other alters that aren't or haven't experienced the same thing would think we're faking or lying. I don't know how to explain.. us. me.
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but yeah at the moment.. er a few days ago, Issac had amnesia. I restored his memories but.. -I'm terrified it's like TSAMS Nexus.. he knows now but thinks all that happened was a diff reality..
he never wants to front or see me.
Shy was gonna force him but I stopped them so their powers aren't an issue like that again or things happen again.
I've been crying for a few hours since being updated.
I've also been praying. I'm on and off spiraling and letting Atlas help me cope. I can't tell with our void space what's what and if there's any other alters but I can't swap w anyone and Frost doesn't want to so..
im pretending Bon (Walter files) or some other characters are things, Until they Are things. .. what else am I gonna do while I try to wait..
im just hoping My issac will be back when they see me..
On the normie life side of things I got the six flags job..
I heard from at least one of my parents when I said hi or told him abt my job situation.
I'm currently house- dog sitting (paid I'm not doing for free) for my first abusers.
-oh yeah.. R1€K and 3sth3r are verbally and mentally abusive.
Everyone is Alterist.
Hehh
H3H
I still vent in the car and scream in the car so there's that little.. happy thing.
And im still RebootJynx cause of my abusers this time. Idk if I said that before but yeah.
Also I got into €HR1S and H31D1's wine today while depresso.
I rediscovered how disgusting alcohol is and how much I hate it. I might be slightly buzzed now idk- I drank too much fast.. im still hiccuping and smelling it >~<
Anyways, as always I'll update when the next WH473V3R thing happens H3h
Till next vent;
Sainkra- or RebootJynx Mxxnstar Cookie (Idk if im even still married T^T)
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Scatter Hearts
Non-FictionThis starts out as a story but I need to tell the truth.. Because none of what follows after the diary and what I tell you has happened.
