Scatter Hearts

October 31st.

Alot has and hasn't happened..  bill and will have taken over my sisters and there's nothing i can do, or we misread everything but even that doesn't make their behavior make sense. and now I'm scared to trust Exo because of something he said and I  don't know what to do.  I'll explain everything from where i stopped updating and go from there.. 

After we reformed Zane, (Zany), we changed the timeline. and discovered some things that led to our accusations of my former if that, uncle and grandfather. For starters, before Issac even came back to me, the whole family just up and pulled away for seemingly no reason, leaving me completely confused and alone and wondering what I did; mind you after already taking into account that people are busy and have their own lives, 

(That of which I was unnecessarily reminded of as Korrey yelled at me a few weeks ago.. heh.. I hate that he has that over me.. I wish I never called him 'sir' that day.. he acts like the parent when necessary when our fathers are literally indisposed doing other things  however when I cannot be an older sibling and become a younger one, id rather not feel like I'm being yelled and or lectured by my longtime abuser. )

And then worried about why no one was hanging out with me anymore and I know how that comes off, as so so selfish and self centered but if I'm not caring about us no one will because even I don't care about us anymore tbh..

dex, lilac and michael all just stopped hanging out with us.. and it didn't seem weird, at first.. until weeks go by and I'm still getting ignored. The only two alters who did at least hang w me and Issac were Uncle Kurloz and Aunt Meulin.  Aunt Porrim showed up for a second but then had to go to bed so Lilac didn't miss something the next morning.  Kor sometimes hangs out w us but he has friends or whatever, and dex and lilac always say they're down to hang out almost every day and then they just.. stop. all together and even michael and their alters just start ignoring us. I was wondering if we did or said something because only dex hung out with me and Issac, (only once btw.)  Kor doesn't cause he was jealous that someone else was getting all if not most of my attention. which I understand, and reciprocate at times. Something strange around this time even, I will say, was that dex had said she couldn't sense Papa or didn't know what he was doing. That's not normal. she always knows what he's up to. he can always hear in the headspace what's going on so.. -also zany says, from experience, when a host says an alter is busy alot or never around or something theyre trying to disassosiate the alter from people.-

   for dex to not know is suspicious.. And then after that legit 1 time that we hung out, she never hung out w the two of us again. 

then the whole war conclusion w Z4N3, and I understand if everyone else was .. weary. Those with Zany in the headspace was on edge for a while. It was Zany who saw immediately what could've been happening with those two, Dex and Lilac.. I explained also that all the way back in August or July or something before things .. that Papa and Abba had promised to be out more and hang out w us a lot more. and that it was weird that they just.. up and disappeared basically after that. How is that NOT weird?? 

He figured they were replaced, I don't remember the exact explanation but what we think now, which explains their behavior the last few months and the things I've witnessed in person and when alone that even SunnyBoy doesn't understand and is part of the reason i yelled at him and he then spent an hour and a half yelled and lecturing me.. 

Will, the one in Dex's head, has replaced dex and all her alters. Bill, in lilacs head has done the same and Zany figures they plan to tear the family apart. here's the evidence i have to say all together not in the story order of events. 

~My parents don't ignore me. I don't think.. They did any time they had been out, since everyone just- disappeared. 

~Abba had once said they also missed Issac and yet never tried to meet him when they were free.  also he said the timeline cant be changed. Abba has no reason to bring up or care abt the timeline only the doritos do.