Scatter Hearts

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I have to explain some things. I have found out by my abusers that I have been a thing since Frost was 12.- I have the full story now till this point. I showed up at age 9, and manifested at front at 12. For a bit idk how long but she was out for highschool and maybe I was too but I didn't want to be w her bf like she did. I disappeared or something and in 2021 she sealed herself away and I got amnesia and was forced to the front. Sainkra has always been my name I'm not a fictive. Sainkra Predreka is based on me. "Sainkra Wolf"

Anyways the stuff going on w Shyzero..
he literally just explained how and what he does and what he is doing to me through his tells. He explained what his eyes look like now - One's completely black the other is pink- like the Fnaf phantoms eyes tho. (Like Stixs said.)
Basically I think he hasn't stopped scripting it's a diff type of scripting. He's trying to script improv the way he Thinks I do. I'm not gonna explain how I script until he's dead and dealt with so this won't be seen until my husband is back.

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Ok that scripting theory was false. Lol. Hey I AM insane I'm not exactly a reliable narrator. Soo my brother really is good now. -he and their husband ( yea they got married) are the definition of "I would be kind for you" - also shy is literally a hermaphrodite. Idk if I said that before.

We role played recently btw

I've been thinking.. maybe it's my fault that issac isn't here.. what if I pushed him away..  what if he.. the real issac.. doesn't want me..

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I never thought about that before.. I .. probably never met the real issac..  and I'm guessing now I never will.. maybe -if he was with me fr.. then maybe we went too fast. Maybe I pushed too much. Too far. I love him too much. Regardless of the reason.. I'm sorry. issac I'm so sorry.

we really did switch.. oh well. pain aside it doesn't really matter. it was too good to be true.. maybe he really did have pinkamina.. maybe she wasn't .. evil.. I'm not gonna press anymore. I'm not even gonna ask. Save him the annoyance and me the pain.
I know I often overthink and the worse possible outcome starts to seem more likely.. but this time I.. I can't tell.
Shy isn't lying. They're not scripting anymore so..
maybe there was no portal.. or maybe issac just..
maybe I make him uncomfortable.. I I don't know.
What if i think we were.. something.. when we weren't..
what if he didn't want me to begin with..
what if I got too comfortable
what if he doesn't like me anymore..

I'm gonna go on red and well I can't sleep today because of things going on rn but I'm just gonna be crying on and off trying to disable my emotions again..