Scatter Hearts

Jan 31. 2026

I just woke up in a daze I've been asleep for so long Ik it's only been less than 24hrs but still
I'm still realizing things
-I never gave xero access to chaos lol
-he doesn't understand chaos. Z and Issac do. You can't pretend that lol
-xero's status LITERALLY says Zero
-He said the PLASTIC stick he had w him was metal and could or had knocked someone out before
-he never had asthma
-he's not an anti villain he's a villain.
-I was never an antihero im a would-be villain
-even yesterday he was acting different to how he had been
-im thinking z4n3 was the one breaking script around me not xero
-he's still insane yea but i think he's currently spiraling still and losing it he's acting more like he did in 2024 now..
Or he's just not pretending to be sane anymore..

Even though i was pretending for a lot of it like the demon thing w the Fort Worth stockyards -i knew that wasn't a thing I was seeing where things went if i played along
Or the whole walking issue I ran to see if he'd run and he did.
I only told him I was done w the channel because now he doesn't have an out. -no I don't want them to die ofc not im seeing their reaction. You really think id act so irrationally especially when spiraling?
I had to get into character even if I forgot why or what I was doing - just like he does.
That's why I had to make a show to my family-to which I am sorry by the way. I couldn't have just SAID something that wouldn't have had the same impact. Although I really don't know what actually happened in August, he wouldn't have believed me if we were all still hanging out even now like we had been. It really does hurt that we've been apart im truly sorry I couldn't say anything.
The funny thing is he actually believes that Rick and Esther would abuse me like Chris and Heidi did.
Although they do annoy me to high heaven and constantly yell at me and fight me and call me things that do get to me; Esther had never hit me like either of those two did.
Although I do wonder if Issac really is an alter. I do hope so but given that conveniently no one has been able to act like themselves because xero never stopped scripting them I have no idea tbh
Issac did give me signs and warnings tho even after "redemption" which at the time I had hope was a thing
Until he started hitting me "sibling love" like.
Yea right you think im that stupid?
You think I didn't notice when you took the front more times than not and suddenly it was only you there not everyone else like it should've been?
Absent mind wasn't a thing. Maybe Riley really was learning things but you don't just shut down your headspace for it.

Hehe misjudging intelligence is the dumbest thing you can do. I will continue to pretend to be as dumb as he thinks I am. Only to see what happens and what I really can do. Cause again I have access to their headspace no matter what happens or what any of them say or do. I can kill every single alter in that headspace if I wanted to. That is how powerful I am. I'm the strongest alter in our head AND theirs and ik how that sounds that's just the truth not a brag.
All I can do is try to give my family clues but they're not gonna figure it out till it's over and I explain everything .. fun.
Or they read this
If they do
Just know im no really losing it. Big game of Chess
Remember?