Adopted by Tyler Joseph, Jenna Joseph and Josh Dun

Chapter 7

//Just so you guys know, it's Thursday in this story. It'll make sense later//
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Tyler picks me up about 30 minutes later. We drive home and sit on the couch downstairs. "So.....I talked to the CPS people and they are letting me and Jenna adopt you! It won't be announced for a few weeks. We want to get you settled in. Also, we can't just live with my parents, and since were always gone we don't have a house here. We may have to go house hunting."

He stands up ans hugs me. "I can't wait" He says. "Me too" I say, but it seems more like a whisper. I look at the floor. There's so many thoughts floating around my head. I sit back down and put my head in my hands and scrub my face.

"You alright?" Tyler asks and puts an arm on my shoulder. I flinch a little. "Y-yeah. I'm fine" I say, even though it's a lie. The thoughts won't stop. My head it going crazy and the thoughts are trying to take over.

"The fans are going to find out and hate you. No one cares. You're not wanted. Just die"

My brain spits thoughts at me. "Are You sure you're okay?" Tyler asks, looking concerned. I nod. "Yeah, I'm just really tired." I say. "Okay. Well I love you and if you need me, I'll be upstairs talking with my parents. I'm telling them about me and Jenna adopting you." I nod.

He goes upstairs and I walk over to my bed. I sit on the edge and look at the floor.

Just kill yourself. No one would care. They would be happy.

I look at my arms and pull my sleeves down over them. I don't want to see them. They remind me of bad times in my life.

Tyler is only adopting you because he feels bad. He doesn't love you. No one does. You're useless.

My head hurts from all the thoughts. I go into the bathroom and wash my face. On the side of the counter is a bottle of pills. I shake my head. "No, I can't. I won't." I sit down with my back against the wall. Tears start falling from my eyes.

Just do it. You can slip away quietly. No one will notice. Then you won't have to deal with the world.

The demons in my head keep trying to convince me. I stand up. There's small paper cups on the other side of the counter. Probably for mouthwash or something. I grab one and fill it with water.

I grab the bottle and walk towards my bed. I sit on the edge and find a piece of paper and a pen. "I couldn't do it anymore. I'm too weak. I'm sorry." I write on the piece of paper. I put it on the bedside table.

I play "youth" by daughter on my phone and put my ear buds in my ears. Tears fall from my eyes as I pick up the bottle. I twist the cap open and dump some in my hand.

Everyone hates you. Just do it already. Die.

I think about Ally's words. About my "parents."

Right as I am about to swallow them I feel someone grab my hands. I look at the floor. They pull my ear buds out. "No you can't. Please. No. Please. I love you." Tyler. Its Tyler. "Please Just leave me alone. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be alive. Just please let me die." I whisper. "No. I love you too much." Tyler says. He picks up his phone and types something in. A few minutes later It dings. He opens it and his eyes scan the screen.

"Josh is coming over. We're staying with you all night. Its gonna be okay." Tyler says.