For His Entertainment

Chapter Twenty-Nine

It was a threat.

I know I said that I'll be eating threats for breakfast but that one hit a nerve. Iyon 'yung kinakatakutan ko, that maybe Spencer would just be the same. Na baka I'm a part of the routine.

I know he gave up A-Illusion and I was a big factor for that decision, but there's this tiny voice in my head saying na baka tama si Chelssy.

"Margarette, please don't let it affect you." Hinawakan ni Spencer ang kamay ko habang nagdadrive. Nilingon ko siya at napabuntong hininga. 

Hindi ako nakasagot.

"You trust me, right?" He pulled over and looked straight into my eyes. "You know I would never do that to you, right?"

I nodded slightly

"You're my girlfriend now..." He ran his finger through my hair. "Right?"

Ngumisi ako at tumango, then I pulled him in for a kiss. He's right, this was what he's telling me about his past that he didn't want me to deal with. And being with Spencer means accepting him wholly - trusting him wholly - even the dark parts.  

Taas noo kong hinarap lahat ng bulung-bulungan sa school kinabukasan. Hindi ako nakipagtalo sa titigan kahit na lahat ay umiiwas sa akin na para bang mayroon akong nakakahawang sakit. Even Spencer ignored everything and acted like we were not an outcast of this school. In fact, he is happy. He is happy to finally be able to hold my hand in public.

"Are you not bothered?" Tanong ko habang kumakain kami dito sa cafeteria.

"About what?" He asked back.

"About everyone? Lahat sila kanina pa tayo tinitignan."

"So what? At least now they know you're mine, at wala nang magtatangka." He winked and turned back to his food.

I sighed. I wish I also had that kind of perspective.

"Look. I got you, okay?" Hinawakan niya ang kamay kong nakapatong sa mesa. "If I need to give everything up just to have you, just to show everyone that you're mine and I'm yours, I will. I don't feel bothered because when I lost everything, I gained you. And you're more than everything to me."

Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. Mabilis kong kinurot ang pisngi niya at pinanggigilan iyon. "Gago, corny."

"Ulol," he hissed back. "Kumain ka na nga lang d'yan, pangit mo na nga, payat mo pa."

It went on and on. Kami at kami na lang ang laging magkasama. Hindi na rin ako nagbubukas ng social media accounts ko dahil sa mga hate messages na natatanggap ko. As much as possible, hindi ako nananatili sa school because if their glares can kill someone, I'd be more than double-dead by now.

Iniiwasan ko na rin ang org meetings kahit na labag sa akin. I was just informed by Kim that Chelssy will be the new president for next year.

"We're proud of you, okay?" Sabi ni Kim habang nakatambay kami rito sa coffee shop. "You need to focus on that agency."

Tumango si Lyka. "True. 'Yan na 'yung pangarap natin. 'Wag mo papansinin 'yung mga nangbabash sa'yo, inggit lang sila."

I appreciate these girls a lot. Kahit na ngayon lang nila nalaman 'yung kwento ko, they still chose to stand by my side and support me.

"What the fuck happened to your face?!" Natataranta kong tanong nang madatnan si Spencer sa condo niya, may pasa siya malapit sa labi at mayroon ding black eye. I decided na dumiretso na lang dito dahil hindi siya nagrereply sa akin, at ito pa ang nadatnan ko.

Hindi niya ako pinansin. Binuhat niya lang ako mula sa pinto, sinarado ito gamit ang kan'yang paa at ibinagsak ako sa kan'yang kama. Hinalikan niya ako ng maraming beses sa buong mukha ko.