For His Entertainment

Chapter Fifty-four

"I don't know what the fuck you're going on and on about! Lizette is my student!" Spencer said, exasperated. "Fuck!"

But I didn't look back at him. Tinuloy ko lang ang pagiimpake ng damit ko, tossing everything I can see inside my bag. Pamaya-maya ay pinupunasan ko ang luha sa mga mata ko dahil nanlalabo ang paningin ko.

It was no use. Lahat ng nilalagay ko sa bag ko ay binabalik niya rin sa cabinet. I have been trying to pack for half an hour now pero walang nangyayari.

Just like our relationship.

Wala nang patutunguhan. I know it very well, pero ngayon ko lang iyon tuluyang naamin. It was like a dust we keep on pushing inside the rug, thinking that if we continue to hide all these issues, then everything will be okay.

I was so fucking wrong. One day the wind just blew the rug and all those misunderstandings, lack of communication—they all just blew right in front of my face. And it was embodied by a woman. He was holding her the same way he held me. And she was looking at his face like a promise.

She danced the sexiest dance I've ever seen—provocative. And Spencer... Spencer just let her. Guided her even.

It was so painful to look at.

That moment felt like theirs. Like I was just intervening and I shouldn't be there. It was weird. I was hurt.

"And now you don't wanna talk?!" Hinawakan niya ang braso ko dahilan para mabalik ako sa realidad. I shoved his arms away from me because I am so disgusted even by the touch of him. Nagtungo ako sa cr para kunin ang mga gamit ko roon and placed all of them inside my bag. Bago pa man ako muling makabalik sa cabinet, marahas akong hinarap ni Spencer sa kan'ya, his eyes were red and teary.

"Talk to me." He said, and it wasn't a request. It was a command.

Hindi ko na napigilan. Up until now, he still thinks he can dictate me what I should and should not do. "I've been begging to talk to you, Spencer. I wanted to feel your presence, to feel us! I wanted to talk about what's wrong and fix it!" I stopped because I needed to breathe. "Then I found you dancing with another woman!"

"It was work, Aleandra! I was only her dance instructor!" Hinilot niya ang kanyang sentido at pinikit nang mariin ang mga mata, kasabay nito ay ang pagtulo ng luha sa kan'yang mata.

"I'm not stupid, Spencer! Kitang kita ng mga mata ko kung paano lumiyab ang mga mata niya sayo! Kitang kita ko kung gaano ka niya kagusto! And I know you're not stupid! I know you know that, too!" Bumalik ako sa closet para kunin ang mga damit pero inagaw niya iyon sa akin.

"So what if she likes me, huh? Zach likes you and did you hear me nag about it? You kiss each other and did you see me packing my fucking bags?! You can't even fucking admit to the media that you have a boyfriend! What am I to you, huh?!"

Nalaglag ang panga ko sa sinabi niya. "Spencer, I am bound by contract and you know that! Pinaalam ko sayo lahat ng galaw ko, sinabi ko sayo lahat ng posibilidad—you agreed! And now you're taking it against me?!" My voice was shaking that even I was surprised I was able to continue speaking. "So this is about Zach? You let that woman touch you because Zach kisses me for the sake of the camera?!" I shook my head in dismay. "You and your insecurities!"

"Tang ina! Ako pa yung insecure ngayon!" Nagulat ako nang bigla niyang tinapon ang bag ko, causing all the clothes to fall on the floor.

"Spencer," I said as I was trying to keep my calm, but my tears won't let me. "I backed out from my very first project dahil alam kong hindi ka komportable. I backed out in the middle of my commitment when we were shooting. Alam mong iniisip ko? Ikaw. I don't want to hurt you. Kahit na sinasabi mong gusto mo akong suportahan, I know... I know it's hard for you."