For His Entertainment

Chapter Forty-nine

I grabbed whatever it was that was nearest to me and impulsively threw it on his way. Fortunately, Spencer was able to dodge the hairbrush, and it noisily hit the floor instead. He halted for a second, turned to face me, and I welcomed his angered sight with a clenched jaw.

"What the fuck is your problem?!" Puno ng galit ang kan'yang mukha, but it no longer bothered me, not even a bit. This is the face I've been seeing everyday. This is the face he keeps on showing me, until I was choking his very presence.

"Ikaw? Anong problema mo?!" I snapped back, the anger and tension between us palpable that I can almost breathe it in. "Aalis ka na naman?"

"Kung ayaw mo 'ko umalis, then don't fucking give me a reason to!"

"Then go ahead! You think I fucking care?!" Lumapit ako sa kan'ya at tinulak siya palabas ng pinto. Pinipigilan niya ang kamay ko pero hindi ako nagpapatalo hanggang sa tuluyan na siyang nasa labas. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang panginginig ng boses ko dahil sa galit, and I was so fucking scared that I'd just break down there and then.

"Fuck, yes! I'm leaving!" He yelled back, his voice echoing in the hallway, leaving trails of anger in every wall.

"You're good at that anyway! You're good at walking away!"

He snorted and bit his lip, shaking his head slightly in dismay. He looked at me, his pupil dilated in anger. Inayos niya ang nalukot niyang damit dahil sa pagtutulak ko sa kan'ya kanina bago muling tumalikod at naglakad palayo.

And that in itself shattered my heart.

I expected this from him.

Yet it still hurts whenever he does.

"Asshole!" I yelled before he can even reach the elevator.

"Bitch!" He yelled back, not even looking at me.

I slammed the door in front of me and ran towards the bedroom. Tinapon ko ang sarili sa kama at kinuha ang unan. Binaon ko ang mukha ko at mahigpit na hinawakan iyon, my voice muffled as I yell all the curses I've ever known.

"...you okay?"

I furrowed my brows when I heard Apple's voice in the background. Drastically, I was dragged back to reality where I'm in front of a vanity mirror and he's applying make-up on me.

I really should stop myself from lingering on to the past.

My reflection was a stark contrast of what I'm feeling. The girl in the mirror is full of colors on her face, her hair dyed in dark ash blonde, while me? if I were a color, I'd be black. Not really a color, but the absence of it.

"Huh?" I asked. "Sorry, just spaced out over there."

He looked at me like I'm a pity, and honestly? I really am.

I wasn't able to get enough sleep the following days kaya't nang makarating kami dito sa El Nido ay doble ang pagod na naramdaman ko. The fatigue from the tremendous gym program and dance training the past weeks were taking their toll on me. Even though we were given a day to rest today, it feels like it's never enough.

"You need to take care of yourself, Ally," Apple placed his hand on my shoulder while looking at me through my reflection.

"I am. I just consulted with my dietitian and she suggested a program for me. Umiiwas na ako sa meat, and I'm following—"

"No, I mean, take care of yourself mentally and emotionally," he shrugged. "You used to be so passionate about this."

I gave him a faint smile before nodding my head in assurance.