For His Entertainment

Chapter Twenty-four

It's gone.

I actually thought I lived my life for Spencer, that now I feel like I was being reborn. I can almost equate it to losing a ring you've been wearing forever - you got so used to it that you never noticed how much of an impact it brings you until you lose it, until you keep on touching that part of your skin and look for something that has always been there.

Ngayong sembreak na, halos hindi na rin ako lumabas ng kwarto ko. I also put Spencer's number on the list of blocked numbers since he kept on calling my mobile. I just didn't want to see him in case he's here. I didn't want to hear any more of the bullshit he's been putting up to. I didn't want to see him because I know a part of me will believe that maybe he really is in love with me.

I didn't want to understand where he is coming from. For me, love, in its purest form, doesn't come with "but" at the end. It is what it is.

"Ally," Kuya Steven knocked on my door.

Tamad akong tumayo at binuksan ang pinto, just enough to see him. "What?"

"You already stink. Naliligo ka pa ba?" Kinunot niya ang noo niya.

"What do you want?" I said dismissively.

"Have you been crying? Why are your eyes swollen?"

I rolled my eyes at him. "What do you want?" I repeated.

"Kumain ka. Hindi ka raw bumababa."

"I'm not hungry."

He sighed and looked at his side. "I told you she's not gonna listen."

I widened the door only to see Ate Kristelle beside him. She smiled warmly at me. "Hi, darling."

Ngumiti ako ng tipid.

"You wanna talk?" She looked at my brother. Kuya Steven immediately got it and started walking away.

I shook my head. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to say the words.

"Okay, you have my number, right? You can text me if you want to talk." Hinaplos niya ang braso ko.

"Thanks, Ate."

I closed the door. For now I only want to sulk in solitude. Tomorrow, I'll start fixing the mess I put myself into.

And that's what I did. Pagkagising ko ng umaga, agad akong naligo at nag-ayos. I wore a simple dress and heels. I planned on meeting Kim today to go shopping, to watch a movie, to forget.

Pero putakte, pagbaba ko pa lang ng hagdan, hindi pa nga ako nakakaalis ng bahay, nakita ko na agad si Spencer na prenteng nakaupo sa couch namin. Seriously, bakit ba welcome na welcome siya dito?

"Ally..." Tumayo siya at agad akong dinaluhan.

I wore my sunglasses para hindi niya mapansin ang mata kong namumugto pa rin. I ignored him and continued walking to our garage.

"Can we talk?" He said before I could even open the door of my car. Sumandal pa siya roon dahilan para magtama ang mga mata namin.

"We already talked enough, Spencer. Move," I said sternly.

"No... I'm not yet done. Can you please listen?"

I heaved out an exasperated breath. Tinanggal ko ang salamin ko and he immediately noticed my swollen eyes.

"You're not yet done with your bullshit?" I raised a brow at him. "Well, spare me because I am done crying. I said... Move."

He sighed and slowly moved out of my car.