Fighting For The Doctors Affection (Manxman)

Fighting For The Doctors Affection: Chapter Seventeen

Good Morning Jitterbugs, Sorry This is so late. But its here now right? Anyways  I hope that you enjoy this chapter. Picture Is of Vaughn.. Hehe.. :) Hope yall have a wonderful day!

Tiggs.

Song of chapter is: Hoobastank- The reason

Dedication goes too:FUJOSHIforlife (thanks for reading and commenting on the story) 

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Vaughn sat outside the house that he and Athiss had built together for longer than he intended, just looking at. As he looked his heart throbbed as he started hoping that everything that had happened in the last few years was nothing but a dream, a very horrible dream.

As he sat there gripping the steering wheel of his car, he closed his eyes hoping that the moment that he opened them to allow in the world that Athiss would be there with him. That everything would be back to the way that it should have been.

But no, he knew that the moment he opened his eyes his nightmare of a reality would come crashing down around him. Taking slow and gentle breaths Vaughn bit his lip as he wondered what he was supposed to do now.

He knew that he had asked his husband to give him a few months, before making any decision. But he also knew that these next few months were really going to show him what kind of person he was.

Slowly letting his lip go Vaughn knew what kind of man he wanted to be. But he also knew that getting there, was going to be a testament to him. Slowly opening his eyes Vaughn whimpered as the cold lifeless house stood in front of him.

He knew that when he walked in there, it would be just like he had left it.

Honestly, all he wanted to do was run back to Athiss and tell him that he needed to be in his presence so that he knew that the man was real. But he knew that would be the worst thing that he could possibly do.

After all he was the one that decided to leave this time, even if Athiss had told him to leave. He could have booked a hotel for any amount of time. But he also knew that some distance between them would be good. That way they both could think about what they wanted, and needed.

Besides Vaughn knew that if he was near his love, he would want to see and be near the man. And the way he had to beg Athiss to lie with him the night before, he knew that the man didn't want anything to do with him.

It wasn't as if he actually blamed him. If he was in Athiss shoes and had been on the receiving end of what Vaughn had to offer for love, he knew that he would want nothing to do with himself either. Taking a slow and gentle breath Vaughn looked down at his ring. The ring that should have meant more to him than any job, or any other partner.

But no, he had chosen. And he knew now that he had chosen wrong. If he could go back and rewrite the past he would in a heartbeat, but he knew that wasn't possible. No matter how badly he wished it was, he knew that he couldn't change the past.

All that he could do is look towards the future.

The future he wanted to have, had Athiss in it. It had them both happy and in love. It didn't have all of this uncertainty. He knew that he had a long and hard road in front of him. But he also knew that he would work hard to prove to his husband that he was a changed man. That he loved him, that all he wanted and needed out of this life was him.

Timidly letting his hands fall from the wheel Vaughn took in a deep breath as he stepped out of the vehicle. As the fresh air assaulted him the last words that Cheryl said to him started swirling around his head.