Fighting For The Doctors Affection (Manxman)

Fighting For The Doctors Affection: Chapter Twenty-Nine

A/N: Here it is the chapter ive been working really hard on. I hope that ya'll enjoy it. This one gave me a bit of problems, but I can honestly say that I love the "outcome" of all the problems.

Dedication this chapter goes to:paytonfromstarbucks ( thanks for putting up with me and my weirdness) Haha. If yall have time Ya'll should go check out his books, you wont regret it!!

Song of the chapter: Shawn Mendes: Mercy

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Eyeing his son slowly Javier ran his fingers through his hair as he watched his son break down to the pits of the abyss. He felt as if his whole world was crashing down right before his very eyes. All he ever wanted in life was for his son to be happy. It's all that has ever mattered to him since Athiss was born. And yet here he was unsure of how to proceed or what to do to make everything for his son better.

After all, Athiss had to deal with the knowledge that his other half was cheating on him.

And to make matters worse, he did it willingly and with no regret, or remorse. That was bound to break even the most hardened human being. Biting his lip Javier stepped forward as he swiftly walked over and knelt beside his son.

Once he was sure that his son wouldn't push him away, he quickly and gently wrapped his arms around his son, as he sobbed. Slowly running his fingers down his son's spine Javier stayed quiet as Athiss sobbed and spoke in a hushed, broken tone: "Dad, I'm so lost. I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. I feel as if these years with Vaughn, have been nothing but a lie. Like I put my faith in something that was never meant to be. But- I still...love him father. Why do I still love him after everything. I know I'm not innocent, after all I have my own faults but-"

He knew that if there was ever a time that he needed to help his son it was here, and now.

Taking a slow breath of air Javier pulled Athiss closer to him as he continued to run his fingers down his sons' spine. This action had always calmed Athiss, since he was a baby. When he was upset, or unsure, you could get him to calm down by running your fingers down his spine. Just as he went to speak he heard: "But... I never fell in love with someone else. I didn't fuck them and produce a child, and the one person I did fuck was Jai, and after it happened I was sorry. I wanted to erase what had happened. But he never felt remorse. I'm so screwed up father. I'm sorry, I'm such a mess, that I'm someone you despise because of what I am. I'm sorry I wasn't born straight, I'm sorry I can't be what you wanted me to be. I'm so sorry."

Pulling away from Athiss, Javier grabbed Athiss chin as he shook his head as he spoke in a leveled tone: "Son... son... Athiss I could never despise you. And what makes you think that I want you to be straight? What makes you think that I'd ever want you to deny who you are, and live a life of unhappiness, a life in which you'll never feel complete because you're fooling yourself? That my son, is never a life that I want you to live. I love you for you, no matter who you sleep with you are still my son. I just want you to realize that no matter what you do, who you are... I could never despise you. I am so proud of the man you have become Athiss, that each day I wake up thankful for the lucky stars that I had the privilege of being your father. No one is perfect my son, everyone makes mistakes. Besides loving Vaughn isn't wrong. The heart wants what it wants, no matter how much the head thinks it's wrong. I can't tell you what to do with him, or how to proceed, all I can do is be here when you need me."

Taking a deep breath Javier stood up as he pulled his son up from where he was sitting and over to the bed. As he gently pushed his sobbing son down he whispered: "Sleep son, and I will come back to check up on you in a few hours?"