hope lies

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I stop eating
I don't know why
but looking at food
makes me remember
Aunt Eevie and I feel like
I'm drowning or it's like my
insides are getting carved out


So I stop.


No one notices
and I'm relieved
because I don't want them to.


Suki closes in on herself again
her smiles grow rarer and rarer
She locks herself in her room
and loses herself in reading books


The house's color turns
from rosy pink
to dismally blue
and my stomach churns
just by sitting in the same room

as Father and Aoi


Zeira and Miria get along fine
they go to their nursery
they eat their food
they play with their toys
like normal,
like always.
Their cot is moved back
And I almost miss their presence
in me and Suki's matchbox bedroom

 

But, as I crawl into bed
at eleven thirty eight pm
I smile a little to myself
because
there, 
just under the mattress,
hidden in the fold of our fitted sheet,
lies the cell phone

lies my hope.

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