Wildest Dreams

Wakas

Wakas

Half an hour has already passed. Pero wala paring bumalik na Elena sa restaurant.

I looked at my watch. Again and again. Pero wala pa ring umuupo sa upuan niya.

I didn't even listen to Sofia anymore. I told Elena to bring her because I might get jealous if Sebastian and he will talk. Sebastian is my friend, and Elena needs yet another guy. He is good for her.

He is rich. Like me. He can finance Elena kahit na hindi naman talaga kailangan dahil willing ako saluin ang lahat ng pangngailangan niya.

Binalingan ko si Sebastian. Nakahilig lang siya sa upuan habang tinitingnan si Sofia.

"Nasaan kaya si Elena?" Tanong ni Sofia.

That's it. I'm off. Sebastian is looking at Sofia, anyway. He's checking her out. Kahit na hindi ko naman alam kung anong makikita sa kanya.

Elena, compared to her, is nothing. She's not my type. She's very talkative, na parang isang halik mo lang ay hindi ka na pakakawalan.

I only have Elena in my mind. Siya lang ang gusto kong kumapit sa akin.

"Hey, I will go. Sebastian." Sabi ko sabay tayo.

Sebastian got the message and I walked away.

My heart started to ache like shit. Umalis si Elena. I asked to be with her for another week. Pumayag siya. Baka nagbago na ang isip niya dahil sa ginawa ko.

Gago ka kasi, Mikael. Gusto ko lang naman paselosin si Elena. If it will work. Because by the time she gets jealous, by the time she bites into my hook, ay malalaman ko na kung may nararamdaman ba talaga siya.

That this 'thing' going on between us is not platonic.

When I found her lying down my bed ay humiyaw ako ng napakalakas na "Yes!" sa isip ko. Because she didn't leave. She just slept here.

I woke her up when I lied down beside her. Her eyes fluttered like little butterfly wings. And it's a sight that I don't want to let go. Ever. I'm hoping that she changes her mind. That she will love me back.

I'm twenty-three. I can marry. I am established. I'm earning tons.

Si Elena ang pinakaunang ginastusan ko ng napakalaki. Siya lang yung hindi ako nagagalit kapag hinahawakan niya ang mga credit cards ko. I encourage her to spend all of mine.

That's when I told myself that maybe she is the one.

"Baby, why'd you leave?" Tanong ko. I wrapped my arms around her. Under the blankets.

My palms found her cloth-free skin and I closed my eyes because I felt myself grow down there.

She sighed. "I'm sorry, baby."

What happened at the airport haunted me every now and then. She let me touch her. She let me fill her.

I never thought she would. Napaiyak pa ako dahil doon. Because my love only grew bigger for her.

I thought she would finally love me back. But she didn't. She just kept on pushing me away. So I decided to give her time while I was in the States.

Things with Shania were not really going well. We dated twice, but there was nothing. Dahil si Elena lang talaga ang nasa isip ko. I kept on wondering if she's pregnant. If I got her pregnant.

The day that I contacted her brother, I found out na nagsusuka raw siya. I wanted to just go home and ask her.

Pero nang sinabi ng kuya niyang wala, ay hindi ko na rin tinuloy ang plano kong magparamdam ulit.