Forget Me Not

Defeating the Purpose

Breakfast was rather quiet. Quitter than usual...in fact this is the quietest it's been, normally breakfast is more exciting, most people were usually talking or fighting but today the only sounds were the scraping of the forks and spoons against plates and bowels. I quietly sighed and I now felt more guilty than ever. I know I was hurting the others but it was something I have to do...I need to if I ever want to survive anything. "Are you sure we can come visit you." Sally was the first to break the silence. "Of course." I smiled. She's been asking me the same question all yesterday and I have a feeling today will be the same. "Even Jeff?" She asked and the others looked up at me and I took a long sip from my orange juice. I knew she didn't really know exact what was going on so I wasn't mad at her for asking. "Maybe." I said passive aggressive and going back to eating. The other followed but I could feel Jeff starring at me. I tried my best to ignore him. "How did you find a place so fast?" EJ asked genuinely concerned. I shrugged. "My old house still hasn't been moved into...the house I grew up in...I suppose no one wants a house were a family was murdered." I added and some of the pastas turned to Jeff as he discreetly flipped them of by rubbing his nose with his middle finger. "Is your old house big?" Sally asked. I was quiet for a moment giving it a thought. "I think so...I don't really remember." I said trying my hardest. "Her house was like mine..." Jeff answered leading Sally to her next question. "What did her house look like?" She sounded very interested in this for some reason. I guess it was just little kids curiosity. "Well...it had a big red door and we always used to race hole from school and the first one to tag the door was winner." Jeff started. I stayed quiet. "What else." Sally smiled. The others actually seemed pretty interested too. "It was a two story house which was always fun to play hide and seek in. Oh! And the house had long hallways that we'd play tag in and then sometimes we would sit on the window sill when Y/n was being grumpy and watch her mother water the roses in her back yard. We would talk a lot about everything. Sometimes I would stay for dinner, they had this awesome long table even though it was just her, her mom, her sister and her dad." Jeff started to talking excitedly but then died down realizing he was being a bit to excited. Everyone was listening intently. "One time, we were playing hide and go seek and she was in one of her grumpy moods...I asked her if she liked anyone and I knew she was planning dumb but I didn't want to say it out loud." Jeff began and I looked at him now with an emotionless expression. "I had a party to go to that day so I didn't get to bother her as much as I would have liked for the truth about her liking me. I knew she need I mean...how couldn't she." He teased running a hand through his hair and I sneered at him looking down at my plate again. He was quiet for a moment. She walked me to the door but as we were walking down the first I turned around and kissed her. Right there." Jeff in the happiest time I've ever heard him speak in. The others kind of laughed and 'awed' but I just started at Jeff. We starred at each other for a while and I'll admit it seemed like ol we were the only too in the room right now. My glare sifted up a bit and Jeff looked down at his plate continuing the story. "Did you love here." Sally batted her eyes and giggled. "I still do..." Jeff said replied and one of the boys cleared they're throats awkwardly. "And as everyone here as my witness or whatever... I need Y/n to know that she can't leave...she can't move because...because I love her and-" I slid my chair back and walked out of the dinning room making the whole house silent. I darted up the stairs and instinctively into Jeff's room. I could feel my tears roll down my face and I hated myself for crying again.

I sat on the edge of the bed and held my face in my eyes as I sobbed quietly. A light knock was heard against the door and I quickly sniffed and wiped away the tears and stood up just as the door was pushed open. Jeff stood there dumb folded and brushed his foot back and forth of the floor nervously. He quietly closed the door. "Okay...yell at me." He said and put his head down like a puppy being scolded. I sniffed once more and sat back down on the edge of the bed. I could tell Jeff was a bit confused but he took my silent treatment as an opportunity to speak. "I love you. I told you that a few months ago, I few days ago, yesterday and now even a few minutes ago...if I didn't mean it, I wouldn't say it at all." He said leaning against the door. I crossed my arms and didn't speak still. "I need you...I'm scared- no terrified I'm so fucking terrified to lose you. I know what it's like not to have you and I swear I would never want to go through that again. I never depended on anyone before. It was always just me. I looked out for myself....I never had anyone to know everything about me and still want to be around...yeah there's EJ and Ben and all the others but they don't really know me. They know Jeff the Killer....not Jeffrey Woods." He took a shaky breath and I slowly uncrossed my ears. "I know I do a lot and I mean a lot of stupid and idiotic things that would never make sense to a normal...sane and logical person, hell...sometimes it doesn't even make sense to me. I'll admit it right here too you, I know I'm a fucking idiot." He said throwing his hands up. I quietly chuckled along with my sniffing. "There's a lot of things in my life that I was never sure about and there still are a lot of things to this day that I'm uncertain about but I know for a fact and I'm willing to swear on any fucking book that I can not make it without you...if you leave there will no longer be a 'me' and this may seem over dramatic but I will die with out you." He said now panicking because I wasn't answering. I stood up and faced him. "I-I'll beg if that's what you need me to do." He said worriedly. I slowly walked to him. "I'll yell to everyone if I have to about how stupid I am...I'm sure they already know that though." He continued thinking about what else he could say. "I'll do anything just please...please don't leave me I'll do anything." He begging now looking down at me as I stood right in front of him. I could see his eyes were watering and the fear in his eyes. "Just kiss me already." I grabbed him by his hoodie and leaned forward connecting my lips with his. He seemed shocked but adapted quickly than I thought at it appeared to me that Jeff has clearly wanted this for a long time and he wasn't about to let a moment slip. He cupped him his hands on the side of my fave gentle and kissed me. After a few short but wonderful minutes I pulled away. "You may be the biggest idiot I know...." I said flicking his nose making him hold the wounded area with his hands. "...but I guess your my idiot." I finished and kissed him quick again. "You've said that before." He smiled. "Then it must be true." I playfully pushed him aside to get to the door. "Where are you going?" He asked with the same fear returning in his eyes. "You really are an idiot." I joked again. Jeff followed me down the hall nervously.