His And Her Circumstances (To Be Edited)

Losing Her

Warning: A lot of angst in this chapter
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Losing Her

Seymour's POV

As I drove  back to the hotel, Ynette, who has had been yelling the whole time, suddenly turned silent.

"Sino ang bata?" Hindi ko naiwasang itanong iyon sa kaniya. Umiling lang siya at mahigpit ang pagkakahawak doon sa box ng donut na hindi niya nabitawan kanina nang buhatin ko siya. Lalong nag-igting ang panga ko.

Fuck. At first I thought the kid was Nathaniels kasi ang tawag dito ay taytay. But he said that the kid was his niece. Pagkatapos ay nagulat ako ng makita ko si Ynette. Who wouldn't? Shit. Dalawang taon siyang nawala pagkatapos ay makikita ko lang siya na kasama ang bestfriend ko?! At may bata pa sila. Another shit. And the worst of all, we have no baby.

All my rational thoughts are now gone.
I don't want to hear anything from her, nor see her with Nathaniel. I only wanted to escape. To take her. And brand her as mine. Marionette Cosias–Montecillo is mine, kahit pa ang kaisipang magkapatid kami ay hindi mawawala sa'kin iyon. Ayokong mawala pa siya sa'kin.

Nakarating kami sa hotel, binuhat ko ulit siya pero nagpupumiglas siya.

"Oh, my God! You are in Jin Hotel?!" Bulalas niya.

The muscles in my jaw clenched. Halos mangalaiti ang mga panga ko sa pagpipigil ng galit. Bakit? Anong meron sa Jin Hotel? Doon ba sila gumawa ni Nathaniel ng—I shook my head mentally.

Dinala ko siya sa kwarto ko. She was beating and kicking me as I bear her hits, not even retreating or evading. Not even uttering a sound as my body received her attacks.

Kinuha ko ang box ng donut, tinapon sa coffee table saka ko siya binato sa kama. Lumundo 'yon at napasinghap siya. Sumabog ang buhok niya sa kaniyang mukha. But...she was still beautiful. My Marionette is still beautiful as ever.

Habang hinahawi niya ang kaniyang buhok ay kinakalas ko naman ang butones ng polo ko. Nanlalaki ang mga mata niya ng makitang hubad na ang pantaas ko. Sinunod kong tanggalin ang sinturon ko. That's when she got over her shockness, she scrumbled off of the bed and was about to run to the door when I caught her waist and throw her again to the bed.

"Seymour!"

Dinaganan ko siya sa kama, half of my weight is on her and I was astriding her. Binato ko ang sinturon sa kung saan pagkatapos ay bumaba mukha ko sa kaniya. Ang labi ko sa kaniya. Sinibasib ko siya ng halik, pilit naman niyang iniiwas ang kaniyang mukha kaya hinawakan ko ang baba niya at ipinirmi.

Tasty.. too tasty, it was hundreds and thousand of times better when comparing to what I dreamt of. Comparing to before.

I myself was unsure of what was going on, but I used a lot of strength and using my tongue, I thoroughly swept through her mouth making her whimphered in pain.

Sa itsura niya pa lang ay nabubuhay na agad ang natutulog kong arousal pagkatapos ay dinagdagan ko pa ng halik.

Hindi ko alam pero halos manginig ang kamay ko habang hinuhubaran ko siya. Ang tibok ng puso ko ay lalo pang bumibilis at ang paghinga ko ay bumibigat. Ito ang siguro ang epekto ni Ynette sa'kin at alam kong habang buhay na ganito ang magiging epekto niya sa'kin. I have been always waiting for her for too long, until I felt like this was not real at this very moment.

Pilit siyang kumakawala sa pagkakadagan ko at pilit niyang pinipigilan ang mga kamay ko na hinuhubad ang kasuotan niya. Pero hindi ko siya hinahayaan. She's mine. Marionatte is fucking mine.

But at the same time, another voice seems to appear in my brain...Stop now. Cause if you don't stop now, you will definitely regret it.

How is it possible to stop now?

"Ynette..." Bulong ko nang tumigil siya sa kakapumiglas.

I laid on top of her, giving her tiny kisses on her cheeks, eyebrows, eyes, and finally stopping at her ears, to nibble her earlobes. But Ynette was stiff and not giving any reaction or reply.

Nagsalubong ang kilay ko at inangat ko ang ulo ko para matignan siya. And I saw, her eyes tightly closed and on her face are the expression of disgust and hate. Tila ba sinaksak ang puso ko nang makita ang ekspresyon niya sa mukha. It hurt me. It hurt me to see her like that.

Idinapa ko siya at pumwesto ako sa likuran niya. This way, I won't be seeing her expression. Nakita kong mahigpit niyang hinawakan ang unan nang maramdaman niya ang pagkalalaki ko sa entrance niya.

And when I entered, I subconsciously let out a sigh of satisfaction, though in my heart, there was a growing feeling of sadness and worriness.

Impit na pagdaing lang ang ginawa niya at nahaharangan pa iyon ng unan dahil doon nakasubsob ang ulo niya. Pero bukod sa ganoong reaksyon ay wala na siyang ibang ginawa o sinabi.

This round of love making, was only one sided. The thought almost made me crazy. But I didn't give a damn, my body... was enjoying it very much.

Countless emotions and feelings were coming up. Anger. Sadness. Love. Disappointment. It almost tearing me apart into two. One who was very much enjoying her body and another was looking at us with pity and coldness.

"Ynette..." I said in a husky voice while pumping inside her. But she didn't answer. "Sweetheart, look at me." But she still did not look up, still decided not to move.

And when I finished, niyakap ko siya mula sa likuran at ipinatong ang baba ko sa balikat niya. Humugot ako ng malalim na paghinga nang hindi siya nagsalita. I turned her body around, wanting to kiss her.

Then, what I saw was a face full of tear stains. My body jolted, it was like someone took a piece of my heart out and I was punched to the gut, it was very painful. Nagbara ang lalamunan ko, the word sorry couldn't come out of my mouth. Pinunasan ko ang mukha niya pero nanatili siyang mahigpit na nakapikit.

Fuck. I don't understand. I don't fucking understand. Why does the energy in my body feels like it is draining away? Almost like the other part of me is going further away from me.

Fuck. I finally see her and obtained her, but somehow... Why does it feels like it was more like losing her?