Darted Hearts

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Nakatitig lang ako sa glasswall ng hotel habang humalukipkip.

Mariin akong napakagat sa aking labi. I need to control myself. I wanted to burst everything everything out but I also need to hear his side. Fuck this is just so hard!

Pagkabihis naming lahat ay agad kaming pumanhik pabalik sa hotel. Laking pasasalamat ko nang nakuha lahat ni Haste ang gusto kong mangyari.

Sa sasakyan ako ni Frau sumakay pabalik habang si Demi naman ay kina Haste.

Tahimik ang buong byahe namin Frau dahil alam kong sa oras na may lalabas na salita mula sa bibig ko... I know I’ll breakdown.

Nagsorry ako kay Haste, sorry for ruining the fucking fun. He said it’s okay, that we should really fix things out. I thanked him for being so understanding.

“Scarlet...” Mahinang tawag niya.

Oh, God. I miss him calling me by that name. The familiar feeling will always be there.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Patuloy niya.

Mariin akong napapikit. Calm down, Arry.

“I should have reach you. I’m sorry, sorry kasi ilang araw akong hindi nagparamdam. I’m sorry kasi nagalit ako. I’m sorry kasi nagselos ako. I’m sorry kasi mas naniwala ako kay Delancy--”

Lumagapak ang isang kamay ko sa mukha niya. Pumula ang kanyang pisngi at nakita kong umigting ang kanyang panga.

Hindi ko napigilan ang pagtulo ng luha kong kanina ko pag pinipigilan.

“You didn’t trust me, after all.” Puno ng hinanakit kong usal sa kanya.

Nilingon niya ako. I saw pain in his eyes. Nanlaki rin ito dahil sa sinabi ko.

“Scarlet, no. Look, I trusted you. Pero nadala ako sa nga pinapakita ni Delancy sa akin. Those pictures of you smiling and laughing the hell out with that fucking other guy pained me!”

Pumula ang kanyang mga mata. Nakita kong may mga luhang nagbabadya mula dito.

Delancy again? That fucking Delancy again? Bakit man pinaniniwalaan niya iyon kumpara sa akin? Dahil naging bestfriend niya? Dahil mas nauna siya? Putang ina!

“What pictures are you talking about?” Marahas kong tanong habang matalim siyang tiningnan.

Instead of answering me ay may kinuha siya sa bag niya at nilantad ang lahat ng larawan sa mesa. With only me and Haste in the photo.

I stared at those photos, dumbfounded. Nakita ko ang unang kuha nito, the date was when I first met Haste. Iyong sa pool, iyong unang pag-uusap namin.

I saw some photos when we went strolling around the street of Mexico, in the garden, in the hotel and the recent one was in the beach. Fuck.

“That’s bullshit! Who the fuck did this, Frau? Your bitch?” Galit kong wika.

“Jesus, Scarlet! Delancy has a name! And I don’t know where it came from or how did she did it but yes, siya ang nagpakita sa akin ng mga iyan. You with that motherfucker!” He said full of hatred and anger in his voice.

So pinagtatanggol pa niya ang babaeng iyon? And how come kami lang nasa mga larawan? We’re with Demi and Vast! Damn it!

“And that motherfucker you’re talking about never left me from the time you fucked us up! He was there! He was there when you were nowhere to be found!” Singhal ko sa kanya habang umaagos na ang aking luha.

Habol ang hininga ko sa tindi ng emosyon kong nadarama. Nanginginig na ang buong katawan ko and all I want is to end this shit!

“I was pissed, okay? Pinaghalong galit, selos, poot at pangungulila, everything was all messed up. I was missing you so much then I saw you with all smiles with that guy samantalang ako dito, ni hindi ka matanggal sa isip ko!” Tears rolled down to his cheeks.