Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 16

I quickly pulled my sleeve down and gathered my stuff off the ground. No one has moved or spoke yet. 

"Knew you were worthless," Maddie finally said with a smirk on her face. Layla went at her again but Zack held her back. 

"Let me go! I will freaking mess you up Maddie," she says trying to get out of Zack's grip. I ignore all the looks and push past everyone. I walk fast down the hall until i reach the parking lot. Once i am out i run to the bleachers and hide under them in tears. I just ruined everything i have been trying to hide. Justin was going to hate me for sure, after i promised him. I can't even control my emotions right now, i let myself cry and cry and cry.

"Jessica!" Layla's voice shouted across the parking lot.

"Where do you think she went?" I heard Zack as her. I heard them running around the parking lot calling my name over and over. I hugged my knees to my chest and wiped my eyes.

"Jessica?" a new voice said making me jump a little when someone bent down to look at me. It was Ryan, what was he doing out of class? "Jessica, come out here," He says. I shake my head, no way was i trusting him, he bullied me too and i don't trust guys. He sigh, "I want to help Jessica, come on," He said in a soft voice. 

I slowly crawled out from under the bleachers and he helped me to my feet. I hugged my arms to myself as we stood there.

"There you are!" Layla shouts running over with Zack. She hugs me, "Why didn't you tell me you did that?" she says sounding hurt. I shake my head and look away from her. I didn't deserve to talk to them after lying. "Jessica, come one talk to me...I know you're hurt about your mom and this bullying but hurting yourself isn't something you should ever do," she says making me glare at her.

"You think i do this because of my mom....I do, and becuase of bullying but that isn't it...None of you would understand no one does," i says walking away. Ryan runs up and grabs my arm making me stop.

"Wait, come one. Layla was just looking out for you, don't yell at her because you won't tell anyone what is happening to you," he says defending Layla. I roll my eyes.

"Let go of my arm Ryan, i don't need help from you. I don't need anyone to help me, you can tell Justin i said that," i say ripping my arm out of his hold and walking into school.

Later i walked home, i made it half way up my drive way when Justin pulled up to his house and walked over. 

"we need to talk," Justin said walking up. I go to open my front door and ignore him but he places his hand on it so i can't open it. I cross my arms and look at him.

"Just leave me alone Justin! I don't want anything to do with you anymore," i say not really meaning it but i know i was only hurting everyone, so i need to go through this alone. He shakes his head.

"No, you need help Jessica just admit it.... Either you tell someone about your dad or i will, this is getting to a point where you are put in a hospital and hurting yourself because of him...You need help," he says in one breath looking at me. I hold back tears as what i was about to do was killing me. I looked right at him, i became a master at lying right to someone's face.

"I don't need help, did you ever stop and think that maybe i was okay with everything that happens? That maybe i don't want help from anyone. You aren't my friend Justin, you are just a kid who feels sorry for me just like everyone else. I mean nothing at all to you, you're just doing this because it makes your bad reputation go away for helping the poor broken girl who is to worthless to do anything. I will never be good, or good enough for you so please...please just leave me alone," i say holding back tears.

The look in his eyes tells me that there is an unknown emotion behind his babdboy image. Something telling me that what i just said might have actually broke him more than me. I felt terrible as we stood there in silence just looking at each other. He steps back and let's the door go but i don't move.

"do you even now what you are saying right now Jessica...Because i know when someone lies, and you just lied..Why don't you tell me how you really feel?" he says in a pissed off tone crosing his arms. Tell him how i really feel? Are you fucking serious. I got a wave of anger and i smacked his chest, then again and again and i began to cry and scream and keep hitting him.

"I feel like everything is my fault, my mom is dead because i wanted her to pick me up from school," i say as i continue to hit him, he just stands there and takes it. "Because after that thing fell apart. My dad used to treat me like the world, now all i do is cause him pain. He hits me because i remind him of my mom, because i am the reason she was in the car that day... It's my fault that i am to weak and a freak to stop him, i just let it happen. I cut myself because pain is the only thing i have ever known, because every time i actually decided to trust someone they hurt me over and over again.... I don't want you around because...Because you're life is perfect, i am not going to be the reason i drag you down, my dad hits me so what, it's not your problem," i say as he grabbs my arms making me stop hitting him. He just looks at me with so many emotions in his eyes. Then it hit me, i just told hi everything....