Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 24

I was so startled i almost dropped my glass of Orange juice on the floor.

"Justin what are you doing here?" i said a little jumpy since he appeared out of no where. I watched as he tried walking over but was almost falling every step. I set my glass down on the desk and walked over to him right as he almost fell. I caught him and helped him stand. 

"We have to talk," he slurs. He was drunk, i could smell the alcohol on his breath, maybe this is what Zack meant by he did stupid things when upset or hurt. I wrap an arm around his waist to help him stand.

"Justin you're drunk...Why did you come here?" i questioned making my way with him to my bed. He slowly moved with me until i made him lay down. He laid and looked at the ceiling with his legs out and arms behind his head. I stood next to the bed not knowing how to handle this. 

"I was stupid, stupid, stupid," Justin repeated over and over again. 

"Maybe i should call Zack," I say going to grab my phone. He quickly grabs my arm carefully and holds it.

"No.....Not him, i promised him this wouldn't happen again," he whispers. I could tell he was starting to sober up, but it is a proven fact drunks tell the truth no matter what. Maybe i could work with this. I cross my arms over my chest.

"Last time i checked Justin, i was just a charity case to you, nothing more than a way to get your reputation back up. So maybe you should leave, i don't want you here," i say turning my back on him. I hear him sigh and he sits up.

"Jessica, crap..... Look maybe at first i was using you, when you tried killing yourself that night, i thought this was the perfect time to gain a good reputation finally. But after everything i found out and that you told me, i don't know," he says but stops. I turn and look at him holding back tears.

"Why would you use me....I trusted you," i whisper closing my eyes. I feel his arms wrap around my waist and pull me to his sitting body on my bed. I was between his legs standing, he hand me pressed against his body.

"Please don't cry, it's killing me.....You have to understand, after that i started getting these weird feelings that i have never gotten with any girl before. It's like every time i seen you i would get this unknown feeling, i would think about you twenty four seven, you were like a drug to me..... After the first three days of talking to you i knew i was a goner....Jessica, i think i fell for you hard," he whispers the last part making me look at him. He was drunk, he didn't know what he was saying. 

"You aren't thinking clearly right now Justin....Go to sleep," i say trying to walk away but his hold is keeping me right where i am. He shakes his head.

"I maybe drunk but every word i just said was true....Please, please give me a chance Jess, please," he begs. He called me Jess, usually i would freak out but when he says it i don't know, it just feels right i guess.

"Justin, honestly i don't know. I don't have room in my heart for more broken promises, pain, or disappointment. Let's face it, you are a guy who dates a different girl every week, i don't want to be just another girl on the list. I don't want to be the one who falls for you hard and then gets left in the dust, i can't take anymore of that. I've had enough to last me a lifetime...And why would you ever want someone like me, when you can have a girl who doesn't have problems, who isn't covered in scars and isn't broken... I am the last girl people would think to be with a guy as perfect as you," i say looking down. He lifts my chin with his fingers.

"Jess, you want to know why you catch my eye and not all those other girls at school? Sure i may use them but that is because they have no standards, they don't care what others think of them if they are boy crazy. They have no self respect for themselves, they are bitches. You, you on the other hand are shy and quite, you don't judge people until you get to know them, and you are stronger than any girl i know, also the most beautiful girl in the school. You're not broken, you just need a few repairs here and there. Nobody expects you to be perfect after everything you have been through, but i want to help you. I want to understand you, i want you to trust me enough to know i would never hurt you intentionally....... As for me being perfect, you have no idea. I am not perfect, look at me right now. I can't handle pain just like you, but i have different ways of handling it. But you, you changed me. when i was with you i never once thought about all this stuff i do, i only focused on helping you and caring about you because i freaking am in love with you," he says pulling me down and smashing his lips to mine.