Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 26

"Jessica, did you hear the news?" Pattie asked me in a careful tone. I could tell by the look in her eyes that something wasn't right, Justin noticed too because he griped my hand.

"Hear what?" i asked in a shakey tone. She looked to me then Justin then back to me.

"When they were going throught your families information to find stuff on where you dad may have run off to... They found something," she says pausing. I waited and it seemed like time stood still. "He isn't your birth dad, you were adopted when you were a baby," she says. Her words make me freeze.

I was adopted? My real parents didn't love me enough to keep me but instead left me with a monster, how could they.

"What do you mean she was adopted? how did they not know this information before?" Justin says looking at me carefully.

"It seems as though this adoption wasn't real. They looked into it some more, Jessica's dad now had been reported at the accident scene of Jessica's birth dad's murder which give police new reason to believe that he killed her real dad and her mother wasn't in any position to care for a child. Which is where he stepped in and offered to take Jessica," she says replaying the story to us. I shake my head holding back tears.

"My mom didn't want me?" i say in disbelif. How could a women not want her own baby.

"Jessica, listen. Your mother was in a state of shock, her husband was murdered and she had a one month old baby to look after. The state police deemed her unfit to be a mother at that time," Pattie says trying to clam me down. I push away from Justin's grip.

"I want to know where she is," i say making them both look at me in shock.

"Well, i can call the police station and get ahold of her. Now that she is aware of what has been going on... I will call," she says walking out of the room. Justin look at me.

"Hey, are you alright?" he asked me. I took no time in hugging him. I needed comfort right now. He wraps his arms around me and hugs me back and kisses the top of my head.

"All this time i thought my parents hated me, but they aren't even my real parents.....How messed up is my life," i say pulling away from him once again.

"Hey, what ever happens now, we do together, you aren't alone anymore," he says making me smile. He takes my hand and we walk to the living room and sit on the couch. Well actually, he sits and i lay so my head is on his lap while he starts playing X-box. As we sit i let my mind go free. I wonder what my real mom looks like, was she pretty, young, sucessful. All these questions were racing through my mind. I wanted to know my real mom, but at the same time, i don't know if i was ready to do this. I grew up with a mom who loved me but died, then my so called father turned against me. Was i ready to accept the fact my real mom was alive, and wanted to get in touch with me again.

"Stop over thinking it babe," Justin says making my heart beat faster. I would have to get used to this whole dating thing. I mean he has dated plenty of girls, he is my first boyfriend and i wasn't educated in this feild. I didn't know how to act or do things with boys.

"I know, i just...It's hard to process everything that is happening to me....I mean all this time i was with a family that wasn't even mine to begin with," i say as he runs his fingers through my hair making me relax a little at his touch.

"I understand, i mean i would be freaking out right now but you seem to be keeping your cool....But please don't over think this. Your mom didn't want to give you up, i mean she was in a state of shock and the state said she couldn't keep you...At least she is trying to get back in your life," he says smilinng down at me. I nod.

"I guess, just i don't know how to react to this, i never met her. I mean she gave birth to me then gave me up, i don't think i can just forgive someone for that right away," i say unsure of my own words. Justin leans down and places a soft kiss on my lips and sits back up.

"I think it will be good to meet her, you deserve to know why she did what she did," he says with a smile. we sat there a little longer before Pattie walks back into the room. Justin and i both stand up and look at her.

"Well, i got ahold of her.....she said to meet her tomorrow after school at the park across from Starbucks," she says with a small smile. 

So this was it, tomorrow i was going to be meeting my real mother. My nerves have just kicked into overdrive.

"She sounded very excited to want to see you Jessica... I informed her that you were currently living here with us, and that you were doing well in school and all. I left out your personal things, i figured that was up to you if you wanted to tell her," she says clearly knowing about my cutting even though i never told her about it. I smile at her.

"Thanks Pattie, it means a lot,"  I say hugging her. she smiles and leaves the room. Justin smiles.

"So looks like we have a date tomorrow after school, officially meeting the parents," he jokes making me smile.

"Shut up! i'm already nervous as it is," i tell him making him laugh and wrap me in his arms again. Tomorrow after school will change my life.