Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 17

I pulled away from him, time to top it off right here, right now.

"One more thing......I don't care if you care or not, because i know you really don't...So stop trying to fool yourself and go find someone pretty and not broken like me. I don't know why you even talk to me, or anything, just leave me alone," i say going inside and slamming the door just as he was about to say something. 

"Jessica open the door," he says from the other side. I lock the door and slide down it in tears. I hear him sigh and then leave. He's gone, forever gone and not coming back. I mean, who would come back after those awful things i just said to him. I don't deserve him anyways, he is better off without someone like me, he can have Maddie, she is pretty she can fit in with him.

The next day i decided against going to school, i called myself in and they didn't even question it. My phone was blowing up with text and calls from Layla, even some from Zack. I ignored all of them, i didn't want to talk to anyone at all right now. I didn't need them, i was a goner anyways after today. I walked into my room with a handful of pills, not just one but a million different kinds i found around the house. I looked at them and just stood there thinking. But i couldn't do it,i threw them away and laid on my bed until i fell asleep.

That night it was storming out, It was late and i got up to get some food. I walked downstairs and grabbed a few oreo cookies and walked into the living room. My throat was grabbed and i was pinned to the wall. I dropped my cookies and grabbed the arm holding me but i was not strong enough.

"I seen the pills Jessica...Were you trying to leave me," my dad says, the smell of beer was clear in his breath. I was losing air fast as i struggled to get free. He lets me go a throws his glass bottle at me. It hits the wall shattering into pieces and one piece cuts my shoulder and another on my cheek. I hiss in pain as it slices my skin. My dad falls over passed out from drinking and i run outside into the storm. 

My head was racing, he actually tried killing me this time, i didn't think he would ever go that far. He chucked a glass bottle at my head, i need to end this. I was soaked the first second of being outside. I looked around and decided the one place i could go. I ran across the street dodging a single car that decided to go without looking. I banged on the door and waited looking back at my house. I didn't even hear the front door open.

"Jessica?" Justin said in a sleepy voice. I turn around, the rain hiding my tears as they dripped of my body. I was shaking from the cold and i am sure i had blood on my cheek and arm, which was now staining my shirt. Justin quickly pulled me into the house. It was a nice house, decorations up all over. 

"What happened?" He said pulling me into a bathroom down the hall and wrapping a towel around me. 

"I'm sorry,"  I whisper breaking down again. He pulls me into a hug and just hugs me until i calm down. I pull away and look at myself in the mirror.

"Let's get you some dry cloths then we will clean you up," He says in a soft voice grabbing my hand, he leads me up the stairs to his room. I stand by the doorway while he moves around. He returns with a hoodie and some girls sweatpants. I look at the pants and he rubs his neck, "Long story," he says as i take the cloths. I go into the bathroom connected to his room and change. His hoodie was ten times to big for me but the pants fit perfectly. I looked at my reflection and sigh, i don't even look like a teen anymore, i look like a broken puzzle.

"Let's clean those cuts," Justin says walking in without knocking.

"You know, i could have been changing still," i joke with a small smile. He smirks and grabs a first aid kit. I hop on the counter and swing my legs like a kid. He walks over focusing on the bandaid in his hands and walks between my legs before looking up. 

"This might sting," he says wiping a cream on my cut on my cheek. I don't even notice, i guess i have had worse. He quickly puts a band aide on and moves to my arm and does the same.

"I didn't mean what i said the other day," i whisper making him look, i lean my head back to stop my tears. "I just.... I don't know how to handle people knowing this now, you seen the way kids at school treated me today, like a freak.... Then Layla got involved and i don't want to do that to her, nor Zack, and you, you keep trying to fix me...I can't be fixed Justin," i say holding the tears in. He sets the first aid stuff down and puts his hands on the counter on either side of my hips and looks at me as i bring my face back to look at him.

"Jessica, everyone can be fixed...You just need the right person to help find the strong, happy girl you used to be," he says in a soft voice. I look at him and do a fake laugh.

"I haven't been happy for almost ten years, nor have i been strong, i handle things by hurting myself, honestly who does that?" i say letting a single tear fall. He quickly wipes it away and let's his fingers linger on my cheek.

"You're beautiful," he whispers making my heart stop...

A/N: Sorry it took so long to update, i have exams these next few days and next week but i promise to try and post more soon :) Maybe another chapter tonight, i don't know yet :) Hope you guys are liking it.....